Pain, regrets and forgiveness

Philippines
October 22, 2012 10:15am CST
Friends, I need your advises please. My boyfriend and I just broke up. We have fought about small things. He lied to me about going out with his friends and i freaked out and was deeply mad at him. I told him rude things, negative and very annoying words. He was hurt and i was also hurt coz i didnt control myself in saying all those things. Now we ended up to a decision of breaking up. His family has heard about this and now, i am afraid to show myself to his family anymore and it would be embarrassing because they were very nice to me especially his mom and now, it feels like i dont have the face anymore to see her mom after knowing all the things ive said to his son. Then now, my boyfriend or ex-bf rather, is very mad at me and he accused me for ruining his life coz this morning he had a job training and he said he didnt pass the training because he wasnt able to focus coz his mind was very disturb by me, he was not in himself while on the training and now he is sad because his family was expecting that he will finally get the job. and due to this, he accused me for ruining his life. He said he still love me but he dont know if the two of us can still be together or if we can fix this problem. I kept on saying sorry to him but i dont know if he is accepting my sorry or not. I told him to just let me know if there is still a chance for us so that I wont be expecting anymore. then he is not replying to my text messages and his not even answering my calls. all i just wanted to hear is yes or no. yes if there still a chance or no. thats all so i could finally move on. uhmmm friends, please advise me what to do. i cant really help myself from crying. i love him so much and i dont want to lose him.
3 responses
@jenny1015 (13366)
• Philippines
23 Oct 12
First of all, why do you get mad at him if he goes out with his friends? How often does he go out with him? Does he spend more time with his friends than you? Are you jealous when he is with his friends? What kind of friends does he have?
@babyeve (1048)
• Seychelles
23 Oct 12
Dear in this kind of situation all you can do for now, is to wait and let him have in won space for him to make the right decision. You cannot force him to do what you want him to do after all that went on, do not texts him and call him all the time, because it will only make matters worse. As for his family, if you you happen to bump into them, just be polite and say a little 'Hello' and even say a little 'How are you' Just to make them see that you have got nothing against them. If they asked you what happened between you and your boyfriend, just tell them the truth. Your boyfriend is deeply hurt at the moment and he needs to figure out what to do and you will just have to wait till he comes around. Have a little bit of faith Dear. :)
• United States
22 Oct 12
I used to be like this with my boyfriend. Before he joined the army and we could hang out together, I'd get very upset if he ended up changing our plans to hang out with friends. It felt like he was ditching me to be with a friend or something and we used to fight about it a lot. Now that he's in the army things are different and we don't fight as much as we used to and I can tell that his priorities are different now and he's more focused on being with me rather than going off with friends. The best you can do is apologize for what you said and just let him know how it makes you feel when he lies about things. But it's definitely not your fault he didn't pass the training. It's not like you were calling him while he was training or trying to bother him. He simply couldn't concentrate because he's upset about the break up and since he couldn't focus, he didn't pass and he needs someone to blame besides himself. Don't blow up his phone with texts and calls. Give him a few days to himself and see what happens. Most of the time when you don't call them, they immediately start to worry about you and then end up missing you. If he's not answering your texts then fine, just give him space and I'm sure he'll end up trying to talk to you again. It's good that he says he still loves you, that means there could be hope for you two. But like I said, stay busy and try not to call or text him. He'll end up missing you and call back and then the two of you can talk about the issue and try to make things better. More than a year ago my boyfriend and I went through a similar situation where he said he wanted a break. To this day I don't know why he did that and he seems to hate himself for doing it even though we're fine now. At first I was always trying to text him and hang out, but we were technically just "friends" and he still wanted everything we'd do as boyfriend and girlfriend but I wouldn't budge. I went a whole day without calling or texting him and by the next morning he called and wanted to see me. We ended up getting back together but we both told each other what bothered us and we tried to fix it and make it better.