Being sensitive: I don't like this feeling
October 29, 2012 11:50pm CST
There are things that bogs me and there are people that bogs me too. It seems that I'm competing with them. 1) a friend who likes to take a ride with hubby because he has no ride feels like he's having this not good feeling towards me when he saw that I'm around and he can't have a free ride home with hubby. (But I'm the wife... I own that motorbike too, and I can go with hubby wherever he wants to go). arggh! what bogs me is... I'm even so sure if he really is feelings such things towards me... it's just what he said sometimes made me think like that. 2)sister inlaw... she's too loud and does other things that bogs me too. it seems that whenever hubby and I go to some places with hubby's sister who has a motorbike too... she feels sad... and I wonder if she is thinking that if she go instead of me. (Don't get me wrong with sister in law... I like her in some ways... i even supported her financially to let her continue school. But... there are just things that bogs me... concerning her!.. Goodness I'm getting not myself these days... and it's driving me whatever.! Argh... this feelings and thoughts are not nice at all... and it's only here that I could say these all.
30 Oct 12
I can understand why you feel this way, because it is something that I am struggling with as well. One of the things that I am trying to do at the moment is to try and find a job, and I am definitely having problems with this because of the fact that I live in a small village and we cannot get to the nearest village very easily. I always feel as though everyone else is able to find a job and I am the one who is stuck in a rut and not doing anything at all. So I hope that soon I will be able to get rid of these feelings and just try to get on with my life.
31 Oct 12
As for me, the reason I'm not working right now is because I decided to stop when had our baby. I don't like the idea of hiring a nanny for her. First because hiring a nanny is quite expensive and secondly is.. I want to take care of my baby myself. My mom in law offered to take care of my baby while I work though but I refused because I don't want them to influence my little girl with the way she raised up her kids. I want to establish my being mom to my daughter. I am actually hoping that when I get back to work in January I'll able to bring my girl with me so that even at work I still can look after her. My boss is not that strict for such thing as long I can do my job well enough. Since I'll be overseeing our financial thing.. it wont that hard for me to do. All I need is a computer and of course I need hubby to do errands for me. I'm so happy my job is not that hard and I can work with hubby and can bring my girl too.
31 Oct 12
Yup I know. Hubby knows about all these things but he also knows that I can do it. Before we decide to bring hubby's family with us, he told me that his family is hard to live with specially his siblings. He told me that if it's only him to decide he won't do such things, I mean taking them to stay with us. What could I do... they were on a dire need that time and the only hope they have to help them is us. Hubby can't support two families of course. So I decided to brought them with us, specially during that time that we are moving to a new and bigger house. I was thinking that we don't have to pay for their house anymore, and they could eat whatever is there in our house then they can focus on other concerns. This is the best way I thought to help them. I know I have to suffer for such decision though there is always good in every bad situation. Just this morning I prayed that the Lord would give me more strength and long patience co's in life there is always such as things as this. I'm just glad I have mylot to express my feelings and people to share their thoughts with me as well. Happy mylotting.