Roller Coaster Emotions

Amyra and Me - This is me and my new niece Amyra, a picture taken the Sunday before Christmas.
@AmbiePam (49493)
United States
January 4, 2013 4:55am CST
So the last couple of days I thought were going to be great. Well, they weren't. The highlight/lowlight was when I was on the phone with the company who handles my internet and phone, and I started crying. Yes, some poor operator had to listen to me cry. If you know me, you know I'm not prone to dramatics. That's always been my sister. I nicknamed her Dramatic Deena (her name is Mindy) when she was a teenager and my parents thought it was hilariously apt. Anyway, afterward I was trying desperately to think of something that would lift my spirits. I thought of a mylotter (talking about you, the sweet lover of cats) and she brought a smile to my face. But what about something or someone I can actually see? And it brought to my mind, Amyra. The 18 month old my sister and BIL just officially adopted out of foster care. And that lifted my heart right up. I immediately e-mailed my sister and asked her to send me a picture of her. And for once, my sister did so without fussing (previously when I asked for a picture she said to get my butt down there (3 hrs. away) and get it myself). And the picture just brought me some joy that I am so thankful for. I've included a picture of Amyra and me on the Sunday before Christmas when my sister and BIL came up to celebrate Christmas early. So about you. what brings you out of the doldrums? I'd like to say I can just pray all the time and I snap out of it, but I don't. However, praying does help me.
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@katsmeow1213 (29047)
• United States
4 Jan 13
I'm terrible at cheering myself up. I get very caught up in my negativity.
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@AmbiePam (49493)
• United States
4 Jan 13
That was me in my teen years. Couldn't get out of the negativity to save my life.
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• United States
5 Jan 13
I don't think anyone else knew how bad I was as a teen. I never talked to anyone about my feelings. I kept most things to myself. I did silly things to try to get attention, but that was usually in school not at home, and at school it went unnoticed as there were hundreds of kids crying out for attention. I never went far enough to get attention for it until I was in my 20's.. that's another story. I did start to feel a little better when I was on pills.. maybe I do need to still be on them, but it's just difficult right now. I don't have the money for doctor's appointments.. I have to pay $20 out of pocket each visit, and my last doctor wanted to see me every time I mentioned there was a problem with the pills. Plus the pills cost $15 out of pocket. It's just not in the budget right now.
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@AmbiePam (49493)
• United States
5 Jan 13
If you get a print out of the four dollar prescriptions Walmart has, the next time you do see your doctor he can pick from those to prescribe you. There are several on that list, so odds are one or two of them would work for you. They'd be 4 dollars without insurance, and less than that with insurance.
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@dawnald (84146)
• Shingle Springs, California
4 Jan 13
What a cutie (the baby lol). I think of things that make me happy.
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@Hatley (164640)
• Garden Grove, California
10 Jan 13
hi dawn I think both of them are cuties andd yhou too, bet you do not think you are a cutie do you? but you are a pretty woman too. so there.
@KrauseHome (35293)
• United States
8 Jan 13
Yes, there are many times all it takes is thinking about something different can help change your thoughts and outlook on life. I know prayer never hurts to help a situation as well. Nice picture and glad you decided to share it with us.
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@RitterSport (2452)
• Lippstadt, Germany
5 Jan 13
oh dear Ambie, my heart goes out to you as your days were so messed up that you started crying. I am also not prone to dramatics at all but some things in life are just too much and then the tears start flowing. You have been strong long enough and had more on your shoulders than I ever had so no wonder that the stress with the phone company ended up with you crying. What gets me out of the pits.......most of all remembering a sentence which is sooo true and it is This too will pass...... This sentence helps me to cope with the daily small or bigger mess..... remembering that life just is some ups and downs so indeed this will pass and maybe tomorrow morning it will not be as important to me as it seems to be right now. Plus my psycho meds also keep me calm. They are really a blessing and I am nowhere ready to cut back on them. I dont take much of them but just a little and this helps to develop a "thick skin". If nothing else works, being on FB works wonders with all the nice pics and videos my friends there share. Hugs
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@bunnybon7 (36901)
• Holiday, Florida
5 Jan 13
what a lovely coup;e of girls you make. id say watching funny movies or my daughter hanging out in my room always works for me
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@cynthiann (18619)
• Jamaica
5 Jan 13
You are more beautiful that I had imagined. I am so glad to see a photo of you and Amyra. You certainly found a beautiful way to get out of the pits and into the sunshine. It happens to all of ua my dear but you have found a way to beat it. Every blessing to you and your neice.
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@jillhill (37383)
• United States
4 Jan 13
What a beautiful photo of you and Amyra! I am glad she can bring you right out of the doldrums! Praying does help.....and thinking happy thoughts does to. As the years go by she will give you more and more to smile about...silly things she says etc....hope your day is better today!
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@carmelanirel (20979)
• United States
4 Jan 13
Hey Ambie, I commented on your picture; this is the first time I have seen a picture of you... I am glad you are feeling better, I know a few "cat lovers" too who are very encouraging... I also agree, prayer helps me, but so do friends, both online and off, who I can talk to and they bring me back from the depths of darkness...
@Lakota12 (42684)
• United States
4 Jan 13
I just get my grand daughter to give me a hug works every time S
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@winterose (39918)
• Canada
4 Jan 13
yep we can go through emotion swings like that. Glad you found something that could cheer you up.
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@celticeagle (118560)
• Boise, Idaho
4 Jan 13
Well, it sounds like you have found a way to combat this feeling low. Whatever works. I have been watching the Home Videos show more than usual.
@Hatley (164640)
• Garden Grove, California
10 Jan 13
when I ge t stressed o ut feelings and am in the tulies I j ust come to ylot as its a lot cheaper than going to some shrink. lol Oh some of those home videos are really funny. lol
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@celticeagle (118560)
• Boise, Idaho
10 Jan 13
Yes, Mylot helps me quite a bit but there are times I need more hands on and professional feed back. The family therapist we did have was great and helped me alot as well. But, she left and is teaching at the University now so we had to take this other gal and I don't care much for her. Today I didn't go because it has been snowing off and on all day and I am not up to driving in these conditions.
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@Hatley (164640)
• Garden Grove, California
10 Jan 13
hi AmbiePam loved seeing your picture as now I can put it with your username.Your little niece is really a cutie and I am so glad to see people adopting so other little ones will have a chance to have families too.I wanted to have a third child but it was not o be so I suggested adoption to my husband as I had had to have a hysterectomy after my second child. ohmy he was really against as he did not think he could love a strange child. I told him of so many of our friends who had adopted and really loved their adopted child.But he just could not budge on his viewpoint. S o be it. I just think its wonderful. every time someone adopts as there goes on more child who will have a family to love her or him
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@AmbiePam (49493)
• United States
10 Jan 13
I agree. And I was so stunned at how much I immediately loved her. You hear people say they fall in love at first sight. That's what I did with her. The love was immediate.
@JenInTN (27565)
• United States
23 Jan 13
My new grand daughter keeps me smiling now. I can be exhausted and miserable but when I see her big blue eyes...I get a little more energy and am able to smile.