What should I do??

By lsa
Beijing, China
August 14, 2014 12:14am CST
Within you I lose myself, without you I find myself wanting to be lost again. There are somebody had said that 'love is ever matter of comedies, and now and then of tragedies'.Maybe recent days it is my tragedies. The first time where we met each other is in BL University and we ate meals together with three other friends.When I saw her,I felt so great.And after that,we talked on the Internet,had dinner,went out and went movies together.Honestly speaking,the time is so familiar to me and I even could remember what she said and the things that when and where we did,also I missed her everytime in that days.Then I knew that I just falling in love with her.So one evening,I told her that I like her and then we are together.At that time I was so happy.But unfortunately,two days later,she told me that she feels we don't suitable to each other and she don't know whether she really like me.At that time I was heart-broken and I told her that I just don't want to see her any more.But after that I just missed her everyday and everytime and I don't know what had I done in thoes days.And I was so regreted so I contacted her again.Honestly speaking ,at that time I just wanted to be her friend so that I could see and talk to her everyday.I tryed my best to care for her.Some days later,we gratuated from school,she went to work and I pursued graduate study.One day ,maybe she was touched by me and told me she want me hug her.So we are together again and even stayed overnight .Just few days ago she told me she don't know whether she really likes me. I feel myself is a tragedian and I just don't know what I should do.Recent days,I don't want to go out and just play games everyday so that I could forget her just for a while and I will not too grieve.I know I still like her and I try my best to persuade myself don't miss her anymore.Just like the saying 'Que sera, sera; whatever will be, will be'.
3 responses
@Alovie (14)
• Jinan, China
15 Aug 14
Petofi Sandor said that:Liberty, love! These two I need. For my love I will sacrifice life, for liberty I will sacrifice my love.
• Beijing, China
15 Aug 14
I think your life may be free and easy.Liberty is just what all of us pursue for in our life,but I don't know whether I could sacrifice my love one day for liberty.
@Alovie (14)
• Jinan, China
18 Aug 14
@lsa_91 Just like you said,"whatever will be, will be",but I think you'd better try again,maybe she still love you and just waiting you to give her a chance again.Fighting!
• Beijing, China
18 Aug 14
@Alovie Thank you. I will try.
@ivanwu (3)
• Guangzhou, China
15 Aug 14
you should clam down and try you best to keep in touch with the girl.you can let her know you love her,but you shouldn't make her feel any pressure,just be a friend to be.please take it easy
• Beijing, China
15 Aug 14
Yeah.These days she is not happy and I always phone her and send massages.Now what I want is just be good friend.What you said is right,I shoud take it easy,just as the saying 'Que sera, sera; whatever will be, will be.'
• Guangzhou, China
14 Aug 14
I think you can clam down and transfer your attention. Then listen what you want from your deep heart.
• Beijing, China
15 Aug 14
Maybe you are right.So I decide to go to school and make myself busy.Maybe after several days,I will know what I really want.Thanks for your advice.