Feeling Detached
By inertia4
@inertia4 (27961)
United States
August 3, 2015 9:46pm CST
A strange thing a strange feeling came over me. I am online and suddenly I had this feeling of being detached. Not from my body or anything. Just being detached from myself somehow. No, it’s not boredom nor is it being tired. I don’t even feel beside myself. I just feel somehow detached. Like nothing actually matter anymore at this point. Yes, I do suffer from depression and this could be part of that. Although I never equate anything I feel with depression. And maybe I should. I did just read about certain celebrities that died way too young. And it wasn’t the ones that died in car crashes or plane crashes or drugs. it was the ones that just dropped dead.
That scares me because some of those actors or actresses were around my age now. and they died just like that. I think about that and I know I have to change some things in my life to avoid that. Like smoking and not eating right. I am also diabetic, which makes it all worse for me. No, I don’t want to bring anyone down with this post, but I needed to write this out. What if I dropped dead now, at least I would have some of this written down. Not that it would actually matter or make a difference, but to me it would. I hate feeling detached like this. I have having to stare into nothingness and wonder when or if I might die. Do other normal people think like this? Hope not.
I know this will pass and I will be fine again. So far, thankfully, I have never fell into a real deep depression. If I did I have no idea if I would ever come back from that. I usually get these feelings of detachment or feeling down, they last awhile and then see to just go away. Usually after I find something else to focus on. And writing this right now I am focusing. So it might be passing by soon. Also my mind goes a mile a minute. And that adds to the anxiety as well. I hope I did not depress anyone here. That is not my intention. I need a break and a walk, that will help me detach from this detachment. That makes sense to me. Well, that’s all I have for now.
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@mommaj (23112)
• United States
14 Jan 16
I have felt like that before, but I never thought of it as depression. Enlightenment maybe, not depression. I can't say because I have never been told anything like that was wrong with me. I know I went through a bout of depression. I would have had to. Someone caused mine though so I am not sure it is the same thing.
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@jhechorain (1198)
• Susanville, California
4 Aug 15
When I went through something like this it was due to depression. Although that was a long time ago and I haven't experienced depression like it since at least. It's hard to figure out what to do to get back to feeling normal even if it isn't depression, hope something works for ya there.
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@inertia4 (27961)
• United States
4 Aug 15
@jhechorain Yes, that is good. And I am okay right now. Believe me. I am gearing up to post another post soon. Nice!!!
@crossbones27 (48417)
• Mojave, California
4 Aug 15
I think we all do at some point. Just some people are to scared to admit it. Better to write it out and get it all out. Usually makes me feel better.
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@Number_Z3r0 (48)
• Lancaster, New Hampshire
4 Aug 15
Inertia,
I completely understand where you're coming from. Ever since I was young, I've had issues with depression, and I have also felt "detached" and apathetic since I was a teenager. I still do sometimes. It bothered me for many years - feeling like nothing I could do would ever matter, and wanting so much to reach out to the people around me and to feel loved, or understood.. I've always been a deep thinker, and there are so many things about life that are just downright depressing.
Although I was never able to rid myself of these feelings of emptiness, or detachment as you call them, I feel that over the past several years I've been able to embrace these feelings in a positive way. What if there is no point to life? What if everything is, in fact, meaningless? The more I thought about it, the more I began to realize that this emptiness was actually the greatest freedom - I was free to do what I wanted, without feeling that I was wasting time or wasting my life. I was free to pursue the things in life that made me happy.
I know to some people that may sound selfish, but believe it or not, there are a lot of people, especially the younger generation, who reject the social norms and expectations that have been imposed upon us by a sick, demented, capitalist society. Life is so much more than spending 40 hours a week wasting away in a cubicle. We live in a world where there are almost infinite possibilities - to spend ones entire life refreshing their inbox, trying to fit into a mold.. it's no wonder you feel detached. That being said, now it's time for you to make your own meaning! What do YOU think is the point of life? What makes YOU happy? Find your own path, and learn to find your own meaning. It's your life - you can either spend it trying to make other people happy, or you can live for what makes you happy.
Hope this was at least somewhat helpful.
-Zero
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@inertia4 (27961)
• United States
4 Aug 15
Thais was a great response and very interesting. But this feeling of detachment was somewhat fleeting. It did not last long. But I know what you mean. I never realized I was depressed as a young teenager. That did not really hit me until after 9/11 and then again after my divorce. It seems I was hit with a double barrel. Maybe a three barrel. But I do feel free. Free to think as I wish to think and totally outside the box that confined me for so long. But there are scars nonetheless.
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@ThankyouLord (698)
• St. Petersburg, Florida
4 Feb 16
I think a lot of people feel detached at times. It comes in different forms. I get waves of it sometimes, where I feel that I am not myself. Just an observer along for the ride or something, and feeling that nothing really matters. I'm not sad, not depressed when this happens. It actually is interesting to observe. Since "we" are not our bodies, I think it is easy to sort of slide away from them in our minds.
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@Dalane (691)
• United States
6 Feb 16
I don't believe I have ever felt detached before. Sometimes that might be better than experiencing pain. Could the feeling of detachment be a defense mechanism of the mind to take you out of the feeling bad mode? Just a thought. Hope you feel better.
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