Will I ever change?

@sharon6345 (135655)
United States
January 7, 2016 9:58pm CST
I know there is something wrong with me. What I want to know is do you think I will ever change? I put some money in the bank today. Not for any special reason or anything. I was just sitting here talking to Adrain nice and calm like my therapist said. Basically I do everything and all he does is take. Well,he said he will work on that and try to do the right thing. I told him I am fine being alone. He asked if I go to the mall tomorrow and I said yes. shortly after that I hear I need $120 and I ran out of laundry soap and Bleach. I could not say a word. Now,I am about to transfer my money into my savings that I can't touch till Oct. lol it is the only way I won't buy that soap and bleach. The good thing is I will be a happy person when I can touch my money. I went to the bank with J today and he put in $100 and he plans not to touch it. He was out of work once and looking for a job. I kept giving him money for bus and train fare. come to find out he had $200 for months saving in his wallet.
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@amnabas (10310)
• Karachi, Pakistan
8 Jan 16
After being deceived by someone is worst feeling I guess. Anyways change is the way we get better.
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@sharon6345 (135655)
• United States
8 Jan 16
Yes that is sure the case with me. And it hurt like a cut too. Thanks
@paigea (22453)
• Canada
8 Jan 16
Change is hard. We can do it though if we really want to and make up our minds.
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@sharon6345 (135655)
• United States
8 Jan 16
I think that making up my mind is killing me.
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@trivia79 (7888)
• El Segundo, California
9 Jan 16
the only permanent in this world is change.
@sharon6345 (135655)
• United States
9 Jan 16
That is a new one for me. Thanks for sharing..
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@trivia79 (7888)
• El Segundo, California
9 Jan 16
@sharon6345 I just got it from a quote but it's true
@kevin1877uk (36964)
8 Jan 16
I think we do learn after some time, not everyone is good with money.
@sharon6345 (135655)
• United States
8 Jan 16
That is sure the case with people. I am doing my best. Thanks Kevin..oh,I see your new picture.
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@kevin1877uk (36964)
8 Jan 16
@sharon6345 I'm glad you are doing your best.
@LadyDuck (171109)
• Switzerland
8 Jan 16
If you cannot control your need to spend money, it's a great idea to put them in a saving account.
@sharon6345 (135655)
• United States
8 Jan 16
I can control spending my money for sure. It's giving my money that I need help with. Thanks.
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@sofssu (14448)
8 Jan 16
Putting away money for the future is a great habit. I have done just that for years and its helped me live thriftily and happily.
@sharon6345 (135655)
• United States
8 Jan 16
I find that awesome as well and it's good.
@celticeagle (119219)
• Boise, Idaho
8 Jan 16
Girl, you are too easy. Keep seeing your therapist, tell her everything. I think you need to stay away from A. You know how they tell an addict that they have to stay away from fellow users? Well, you need to do this too. You know you are going to give in to him and that is like an addict. They don't have the strength to stay clean. And you don't have the strength to say no when he wants something. He has conditioned you.
@sharon6345 (135655)
• United States
8 Jan 16
I was told that he was my addiction but don't remember who said it. I told my friend that the 7 days I did not see him felt like I was coming off something. When he walked through the door all the bad feelings went away. So,I guess your right and I am too easy. But,the sadness was gone. I will work harder but it won't be easy. Thanks.
@zebra2222 (5171)
• United States
8 Jan 16
You learn and be more careful.
@sharon6345 (135655)
• United States
8 Jan 16
I am hoping for that too.. thanks Steve.
@jstory07 (69222)
• Roseburg, Oregon
8 Jan 16
You should take care of yourself first. If you do not no one else will.
@sharon6345 (135655)
• United States
8 Jan 16
I am doing the best I can Judy. Thanks very much.