Why I Dislike Eating

Dayton, Ohio
January 19, 2016 5:56am CST
Another comment by another user got me thinking about the dilemma I face each day. I dislike eating, for the most part. I do eat, don't get me wrong, I just don't enjoy it as much as I did when I was younger. I had a growth removed from my face when I was a young lady. This left a small depression on my cheek and left me without one of my spit glands. When I eat, saliva on that side of my face seeps out my cheek when I eat. With the removal of the gland, it has little other place to go. When they did the surgery they had to remove many nerves to the right side of my face. This left me paralized on one side of my face. I was told I would never smile again. Wrong, I can smile just fine. Tiny bit lopsided, but people don't notice that. However, when I eat people DO notice the wet stuff on my cheek. Quite frankly, I am sick of having to explain it while I eat. This makes me not want to eat around other people. When I was a little older I had to get my tonsils removed. I had a 3 month infection in my tonsils that would not cease. Unfortunately, however my nerves grew back on the right side of my face in a way that the tonsilectomy further damaged them. I lost both my sense of taste and smell for 6 months. Imagine your favorite meal laid ahead of you, your mind already in place, so your drooling for a bite. You take a bite... and it tastes like sand. When my sense of smell and taste came back everything smelled an tasted different. Still does. Over the years I have gotten used to the new taste of food, but that plus the seeping spit out of my cheek has made eating a burden. I have to keep a napkin handy to wipe my cheek. I know I am probably clinically crazy for only eating when no one is watching. I also have to continue to assure people I do eat. I try to remind them that all of these curves do not come from starving myself. People seem satisfied with that answer. Anyhow, I do wish we had those Jetson's food caplets so I would have to waste no more time on eating, or dishes, lol. Until then, I will just continue to eat in secret I suppose.
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@LadyDuck (156900)
• Switzerland
19 Jan 16
I am sorry to know that you cannot appreciate the food as you did in the past and I can well understand all the reason behind this. I am sure I would feel the same.
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• Dayton, Ohio
19 Jan 16
There are some foods I have not eaten since. I want to remember them the way that they were. I don't want to risk hating something which appreciating its taste was tied to something important.
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@LadyDuck (156900)
• Switzerland
19 Jan 16
@BethieAnnie It must be hard, the taste and the smell are part of our memories.
@scheng1 (24801)
• Singapore
23 Jan 16
If I were you, I would announce to everyone about the gland problem, so that they know what to expect. I think it is better to let them know beforehand, so that they will not feel embarrassed and try to look away. I think if you step into a restaurant or any eatery, just explain to the waiters or the people sitting on the next table.
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• Dayton, Ohio
23 Jan 16
I did decide to speak with my friends and family about it, and that had positive results. I do feel a little better now!
@GreatMartin (4540)
• Ft. Lauderdale, Florida
19 Jan 16
I am sorry to hear about your problem. I LOVE to eat whether it be foods I have had or foods I am tasting for the first time. As an old man I am concerned about losing my taste buds, my smell, my senses so I wouldn't enjoy foods.
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• Dayton, Ohio
19 Jan 16
Hopefully it won't happen to you, I was too young to fully understand to appreciate the taste of the food. Honestly, I like trying new things. I don't like eating foods I ate before all of this, because of how different they taste. But with a new food, well I never knew what that tasted like, so I can still enjoy the new taste, as I have nothing to compare it too.
• United States
19 Jan 16
Sounds like you've been through a lot and although food doesn't taste the same I'm sure your smile is a happy one
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• Dayton, Ohio
19 Jan 16
well, food is weird, and thats alright. But you are right, my smile is a happy one. I never realized that I should appreciate just being able to smile until I couldn't do it. I learned a heck of a lot, including the real importance of a smile!
• Jacksonville, Florida
22 Jan 16
I am sorry for all you go through just to eat-I would hate eating too with that. And people can be so mean sometimes so I wouldn't want to eat in front of other people either. I dislike eating in front of others because of my teeth being bad.
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@Ladypeace (2056)
• Singapore
19 Jan 16
It's the first time I've heard of such an ailment. My heart goes out to you. Please stay strong.
• Dayton, Ohio
19 Jan 16
It was called Lymphoangioma, cycstic hygroma. It is really rare to see the way that it presented in me. Took over a year for a diagnosis, and then I became a medical oddity. Only a few cases like mine present around the world. The closest case to mine was a young man in Germany. I got to meet doctors from all over the place who came to learn from my treatment. Even a doctor from Johns Hopkins and the Mayo Clinic (the best hospitals in the country) came to help with my 16 hour surgery. I was honestly lucky that so many doctors came to work on my case and all of them pro bono because of how rare my condition was.
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@Ladypeace (2056)
• Singapore
19 Jan 16
You never know who you have touched just by voicing this out. It's a good thing you did.
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• Dayton, Ohio
19 Jan 16
@Ladypeace I had not thought of it that way. Thank you, that does put perspective on it!
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@gabs8513 (48716)
• United Kingdom
19 Jan 16
I am so sorry to read this I do not think you are crazy at all as I would do the same you can not enjoy a Meal with others when you have to keep explaining to People and as long as you are eating that is ok
• Dayton, Ohio
19 Jan 16
That is what I tell people. They say, "Your Weird" luckily I don't take being weird as an insult in todays world, seeing as normal is already weird.
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@gabs8513 (48716)
• United Kingdom
20 Jan 16
@BethieAnnie Good on you but I do not think you are weird as I would do the same
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@marlina (73885)
• Canada
19 Jan 16
It must be tough for you.
• Dayton, Ohio
19 Jan 16
I think it is tougher for other people than me. I have so much in my life to feel blessed for, that this eating thing is just another part of life for me. It is weird to actually talk about it, though. I never do.
• United States
19 Jan 16
@BethieAnnie it's nice that you feel comfortable enough to share this here.
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@Platespinner (16492)
• Winston Salem, North Carolina
19 Jan 16
All things considered, I can understand why you would rather not eat around people. I imagine most of us would respond similarly...I know I would.
• Dayton, Ohio
19 Jan 16
Like I was telling gabs, I have never talked about this before. I sort of just said, it is what it is. It is nice to be able to get it out there. It makes me feel a little better to know that others might react similarly. I guess we all have our quirks.
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@SIMPLYD (79592)
• Philippines
26 Jan 16
I can feel you . I would also would feel the same way if i have that kind of condition . But i seem confused , you mean when you eat some saliva comes out of the mouth and hit your cheek ?
@gr8nana6 (2194)
• United States
22 Jan 16
Oh that is sad and I am sorry you cannot enjoy your food anymore, but don't stop eating do it in private.