Missing You - How Badly Have You Missed a Living Person?

Missing You
East London, South Africa
February 27, 2016 8:30am CST
And did they come back to you? And were things the same as before? A bit of creative writing for my first post here at myLot: MISSING YOU And it's killing me, the thought of a life without you, and all the other thoughts that go with that too, are even worse, just piling the soil onto me in my grave, suspicions of you being happy - the happiest you've ever been - with somebody else special in your life, when I thought that it was with me that you've been the happiest you've ever been. I don't feel like I'm dying, with every breath a struggle to take; I feel like I'm already dead, my breath all gone; and I'm floating about in a dark nowhere land reaching out my hands for you, calling your name, endlessly, reaching out, calling, looking for you, reaching out, calling you, calling "Where are you my love?" and "Come to me my love." And waiting, waiting, waiting for your hand to grab mine in the darkness, and for you to tell me it's going to be okay, that you found me, and that you'll never let go of my hand again. But it doesn't happen. I just float about in the darkness forever, in my dark dark hell of all hells from which there is no escape floating, searching blindly, calling your name to the beyond of the beyond of forever in the worst agony ever, searching for you, waiting for you and not even being able to cry myself to death because I'm dead already it's just going to go on and on forever, my deepest darkest hell of an existence I love you; I cannot live without you; I will search and wait forever. Missing you. photo: Teresa's own photo
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@TheHorse (63996)
• Pleasant Hill, California
27 Feb 16
There are people I miss who are still living. I'm resigned to it, though.
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@paigea (21995)
• Canada
3 Mar 16
I have been feeling that way lately too. Resigned. I thought about how many years it has been without contact and it seems I should quit hoping.
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@jaboUK (53539)
• United Kingdom
27 Feb 16
What a wonderful piece of writing, you really put your heart on the page.
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• United States
27 Feb 16
I tried to reply to your comment on my discussion but for some reason I can't did you block me by accident?
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@JolietJake (51114)
• United States
27 Feb 16
If you were blocked, you couldn't respond here
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• United States
27 Feb 16
@JolietJake I know now I can - but earlier I couldn't.
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• East London, South Africa
27 Feb 16
We've got this sorted now; glad you know I didn't block just you. Not sure why you couldn't post comments earlier; it's only messages I've blocked - messages from everyone. Loved your reactions to discovering I'm here - I feel welcome. Thank you.
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@LadyDuck (152581)
• Switzerland
27 Feb 16
Hello Terry, I am so glad you joined, I never forgot you and it's a pleasure to be able to chat again.
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• East London, South Africa
27 Feb 16
Hi Anna - thank you. It's good to see you here too.
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@xFiacre (4382)
• Ireland
1 Mar 16
@teresashultz Good to see another familiar name/face here. That piece of writing really communicates a most forlorn and lost feeling.
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@allknowing (63502)
• India
29 Feb 16
We have not met but reading through comments and responses here it seems your interactions with others elsewhere have made them happy you have joined here. Welcome to myLot.
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• Eugene, Oregon
29 Feb 16
What a sad, anguished and well written story this is.
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@divssri (987)
• Bangalore, India
29 Feb 16
Missing someone is a very strange feeling, we miss to them those are close to our hearts unfortunately we have to apart with them due to lot of reason but they always in our memories. In my life there are lit of person I gave contact with them but still any discussion about them I miss them badly that time very strange feeling comes that can't be expressed.
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@Inlemay (16489)
• South Africa
29 Feb 16
Oh how wonderful that you have come here, we have missed you, although i know who you are talking about. welcome. love love love that you are here!!
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@valmnz (12769)
• New Zealand
28 Feb 16
Great to catch up with you again Teresa! I'm not on here all that much at the moment, so glad you found me.
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@BelleStarr (37666)
• United States
28 Feb 16
Welcome to mylot so glad you joined and what a great way to begin your time here.
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@LeaPea2417 (19858)
• Toccoa, Georgia
28 Feb 16
That is very nicely written. It also has a feel about it like loving someone who you can't be with because of circumstances and the constant pain that is carried within on a daily basis.
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@Rollo1 (16649)
• Boston, Massachusetts
28 Feb 16
Nice to see you here, Teresa. Your post runs just as those emotions do, tumbling over one another, crying out and drawing in, desperate and determined. Very nicely done.
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@DianneN (76154)
• United States
28 Feb 16
Welcome! It's so good to see you here!!!! I miss many people. Only my mother has come back to me in two dreams. It was so wonderful seeing her again and talking at lunch.
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@Platespinner (16522)
• Winston Salem, North Carolina
28 Feb 16
Another familiar user name! Welcome aboard!
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@just4him (113414)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
27 Feb 16
Wonderful descriptive story about missing someone. I've never missed anyone that much.
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• Bangalore, India
27 Feb 16
its indeed like no breathe to take when you love someone and there is no know of his/her whereabouts.it occurs in love very often and i had too.but then the secret is keep breathing because if you don't then lesser chance of finding you are looking for
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@mavlana (1029)
• India
27 Feb 16
I guess,love is an important step on the ladder of consciousness,nd love dosn't throws u in darkness...on the contrary,it extracts u from nothingness towards lovely life.
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@Gina145 (4004)
• Johannesburg, South Africa
19 Mar 16
Hi Teresa. Nice to see you here. I haven't been around this site much lately but I'm hoping to start fitting it into my schedule again.
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@paigea (21995)
• Canada
3 Mar 16
It seems the person I am missing is never coming back. I loved the feeling in your poem.
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