I wish I knew how to understand him more.
March 7, 2016 1:21pm CST
I had a very long conversation with him. During that call he asked me what I wanted. I said,I want you and he said that is ok but I want to know besides that what do you want. I said,honestly from a man and someone I can trust. he said,I already have those things. he said,he would not ever hurt me. he then said I don't like to tell lies. He told me when he was younger he was thinking it was cool to lie and sleep around. As he got older he saw the real damage that is can cause and would not want anyone to cause him that kind of pain. he then asked me was I vindictive. I did not know how to answer that because,I was insulted. I told him i might get angry if you hurt me and feel the pain and want to hurt you back. But after growing up an living the life i have I refuse to let another person bring me that far. he said,he respects that but was hoping I would not hurt him do to me being hurt. Well,I am not in pain any more to be honest. I told him that in my heart I let it go and I moved on. I talk to Adrain every day and nothing in me wants him back. I sort of feel sorry for him because he is hurting now. he did not believe when I found him high that I was done. I thank whoever it was that made me go back to his house that night. I was on my way home. If I had not turned back I would still be in the dark. Blessings be to glory that part of me is in the past. What a wonderful feeling. I just wish I understood joey better. He is so emotional..
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• Toronto, Ontario
8 Mar 16
I think having other things in life that make us happy besides men. Noone will make you completely until you are happy with yourself which I think is what he means. For example regardless if I am in a relationship I have my bucket list, I want to buy a house, I want to go skydiving. I can live my life without a man to complete me. I have dated a few guys all they want in a meaningful loving relationship they are seeking something they want in themselves which they will never find.