Not Myself

@just4him (82322)
Green Bay, Wisconsin
April 12, 2016 9:41pm CST
Today I just did not want to do anything. Yes, I got my hair done so I would look decent for the funeral on Thursday. But I'm talking about being on the computer. I just lacked the enthusiasm today. I took a short nap before my son had class, so that helped a little bit. I stayed at the school so it wouldn't be a waste of gas going back and forth. I found out my sister has been trying to get hold of me. My cell died - something wrong with the phone because it was fully charged when it just died in the middle of a ring yesterday. I don't need to go to the church tomorrow. She got it all taken care of over the phone today. So right now I have tomorrow completely free. So now I'm home and I'm feeling more social than I was all day, and getting down to reading and interacting with you all. I know it's all that happened and the funeral that has me not knowing which way to turn and my enthusiasm for everything is just not what it was. So I ask your patience with me while I sort myself out and get back to normal at some point soon, I hope. Thanks for reading. I hope your day is going well. I thought I would share a picture of my parents taken at my daughter's wedding reception. It's one of the best I have of them, and thanks to my sister-in-law taking my crashed hard drive to her computer savvy father, I have all those files now retrieved.
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@LadyDuck (109489)
• Switzerland
13 Apr 16
I understand that you do not feel very social, this is a difficult moment for you, it must be very hard.
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@just4him (82322)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
13 Apr 16
It is.
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@LadyDuck (109489)
• Switzerland
14 Apr 16
@just4him Stay with your family, try to keep busy.
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@just4him (82322)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
15 Apr 16
@LadyDuck It was a good day today. It was good seeing various members of my family today, and as one cousin said, we need to stop meeting like this. There is a family reunion this summer so that will be good.
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@Tampa_girl7 (21012)
• United States
13 Apr 16
It's very understandable that you would not be yourself. That is a lovely picture of your parents.
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@just4him (82322)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
13 Apr 16
Thank you. That was taken four years ago.
@SIMPLYD (73154)
• Philippines
13 Apr 16
It's so nice indeed when we have the whole day to just relax and do whatever we like to do to entertain us .
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@just4him (82322)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
13 Apr 16
It is, but I'd rather be myself and in charge of my circumstances when I relax. This week has been a bad one.
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@SIMPLYD (73154)
• Philippines
14 Apr 16
@just4him I hope next week will be better for you .
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@just4him (82322)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
14 Apr 16
@SIMPLYD So do I.
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@gudheart (12808)
13 Apr 16
Sorry to hear of your loss and I am sure a break would do you good and help you deal with the loss. Hope things get better for yourself soon x
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@just4him (82322)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
13 Apr 16
Thank you. They will. I just need to give it time.
@CRK109 (14409)
• United States
13 Apr 16
It's very normal for you to be feeling that way right now. You're going through grief and probably some depression, too. It's probably easier for us to give you time than it will be for you to give it to yourself. xoxoxo
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@just4him (82322)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
13 Apr 16
I know you're right.
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@hereandthere (20910)
• Philippines
13 Apr 16
it's okay to withdraw and give yourself time to grieve. we all take online breaks.
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@just4him (82322)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
13 Apr 16
I probably need to do that more.
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@Marcyaz (36147)
• United States
13 Apr 16
What a wonderful picture of your parents and good your sister in-law knew who to take your computer to so you now have your files again. Of course you are not yourself at this time it is completely understandable.
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@just4him (82322)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
13 Apr 16
Thank you for understanding and the compliment on the picture.
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@Marcyaz (36147)
• United States
14 Apr 16
@just4him You are Welcome Valerie as I do understand and the picture is so very precious.
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@just4him (82322)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
14 Apr 16
@Marcyaz Thank you.
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@Drosophila (16885)
• Ireland
13 Apr 16
you have had an extremely trying week. give yourself time to rest and recharge :)
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@just4him (82322)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
13 Apr 16
Unfortunately I have no choice.
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@Drosophila (16885)
• Ireland
14 Apr 16
@just4him I'll keep you in my prayers
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@just4him (82322)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
15 Apr 16
@Drosophila Thank you. Today went very well.
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@TRBRocks420 (57452)
• Banks, Oregon
14 Apr 16
Very cool picture of your parents and, completely understandable.
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@just4him (82322)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
14 Apr 16
Thank you.
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@TRBRocks420 (57452)
• Banks, Oregon
14 Apr 16
@just4him You're welcome.
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@JESSY3236 (4535)
• United States
15 Apr 16
I haven't really felt like being on the computer either, but I need to since I had promised that I would do more hours.
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@just4him (82322)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
15 Apr 16
I hope you'll be able to then.
@cacay1 (30785)
• Cagayan De Oro, Philippines
14 Apr 16
Nice photo of your lovely parents. Just don't think of the activities here for a while, it must be family first. Take some rest .
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@just4him (82322)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
14 Apr 16
If it weren't for here, I'd go totally nuts. I need this interaction.
@Jessicalynnt (48199)
• Centralia, Missouri
13 Apr 16
some days are just days to kinda exist, and just slump about the house
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@just4him (82322)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
13 Apr 16
Today is one of those days.
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@marlina (57233)
• Canada
13 Apr 16
It is just normal that you would feel that way during this difficult time. Glad that you got your pictures back. That is a lovely photo of your parents.
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@just4him (82322)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
13 Apr 16
So am I. It's a huge relief to have them back. I don't like normal at the moment.
@BettyB (4304)
• Summerville, South Carolina
13 Apr 16
The loss of someone important to you will leave you out of sorts for a while. With God's help, we all get through it. I'm glad you're feeling a little better.
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@just4him (82322)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
13 Apr 16
Thank you. Things are okay, not great, but maybe spending time with kids tonight will be the difference maker.
• Canada
13 Apr 16
You don't need to apologize for that, you just had a major loss that is completely understandable-keeping you in prayer.
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@just4him (82322)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
14 Apr 16
Thank you very much. Tomorrow will be super hard.
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@Elizaby (3273)
• Pensacola, Florida
13 Apr 16
With all that you have on your plate this week with the loss of your father it is understandable. So take your time as it is going to take time for you to get through losing your father so soon after your mother. Just take one day at a time and rest knowing that God will walk you through thos valley as He has already did so many others. Prayers are going up for you now even as I type this.
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@just4him (82322)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
13 Apr 16
Thank you so much.
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@Lucky15 (33688)
• Philippines
13 Apr 16
we understand what you are going through ma'am :)
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@just4him (82322)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
14 Apr 16
Thank you very much. I do appreciate it.
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@puddleglum (1444)
• United States
13 Apr 16
That's a good picture. It's nice that you now have that special moment captured.
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@just4him (82322)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
14 Apr 16
Yes it is. I think it's one of the better ones I have of them together.
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@sharon6345 (98813)
• United States
13 Apr 16
It's totally understandable for you to be this way. take care
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@just4him (82322)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
14 Apr 16
Thank you. I appreciate it.