My Own Little Temper Tantrum
May 18, 2016 5:32pm CST
I am not in a good mood tonight. I feel like everyone (by everyone I mean professionals) don't really care about how I feel (meaning my distress level). They only care that I don't show how much distress I'm in. I wrote last night that my therapist mentioned shipping me off somewhere out of state for treatment. She doesn't even know where. And it would be a type of treatment I find counter to everything I believe in. Instead of embracing and acknowledging emotions, its all about regulating and learning to control them. Push them aside, stuff them back down, smile when you feel bad (that last one is a real skill taught by this method!). Distract, distract, distract. I spend my whole life distracting myself from my emotions just to survive...I don't need to be taught to do multiplication games in my head and such. Nothing feels like its really about helping me right now, its just about shutting me up.
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• Holiday, Florida
I don't know your problem exactly but I never was able to control mine either. but have been able to push back some pain by thinking and managing /distracting with other things until a time came I could take those thoughts and feelings out and face them more calmly . sorry but I never believed in therapist of that nature if it has to do with the depression thing. hope you figure a way to face it yourself without self medicating