How Do You Cope with the Death of a Loved One?

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I do not have a lot of experience with death. I recently lost a close friend who suffered from severe epilepsy. She had been having seizures since she was a child after losing her mom. The last time I saw her was not long before she died and her seizures were very bad and seemed different somehow. She was not herself afterward and her personal care attendant sent her to the ER but she did not spend the night. I saw her Friday and Saturday and she had passed by Monday when her PCA found her thinking she was asleep at first. I received a call on Thursday and dropped the phone in shock. She was only 47. Her mom died in May when she was 47 too. We had been friends for 20 years and had been recently discussing how long our friendship was. I went to the wake but not the funeral. It was surreal seeing her body in the open casket. I miss her and feel sad and grieve but have not cried. I do not cry easily and think I may still be in shock and/or denial. I am saddened every time something or someone reminds me of her. Her PCA did say that she looked peaceful when she found her so I hope that she passed in her sleep. Thank God she does not have to suffer anymore. I would like to think that she is a guardian angel watching me from heaven. I know that she is with her parents and nephew gone before her. Someday I will join her and be with her for eternity in heaven Godwilling. I am so grateful for my faith. It helps me cope better with life and death.