I Needed My Mommy Today
January 10, 2017 5:57pm CST
The neurologist ran me through some tests today. They were memory tests given to people having problems with their memory. Dementia was ruled out. I was relieved. Stress is playing a huge role in my inability to focus and the trickle down effect is giving my memory a run for the money. All I wanted to do was go hug my mother. Whenever I needed my spirits lifted, she was there. Gave me a hug, listened to me. I needed her today. She was in the activity room when I arrived. She was sitting in her wheelchair next to her boyfriend. I smiled seeing that. Glad she has found someone to connect with. Her face lit up when she saw me. I bent down and gave her a kiss and a hug. There was music playing and she was singing. I joined in when Connie Francis, Who's Sorry Now, came over the speakers. The young woman who was in charge of the morning activities shut off the music and everyone let her know they weren't happy with it. But, I guess everything is done on time. It was time for her to read the news from the local paper. Most listened to her as she read. A few would comment to the news. Horoscopes read, Dear Abby too. Then a little trivia was played. Mom asked me for the answers and I whispered them to her. She smile broadly as she shouted out the correct answer. We spoke few words. Mom's focus is short so I try not to overwhelm her. I showed her pictures of my granddaughter at Christmas. She loved them. Told her we are coming to see her this weekend. That made her smile. The group was going off into different directions. Lunch was about to be served. Mom's boyfriend was moved to another area and she was clearly ready to be by his side. I bent down and gave her another hug and kiss. Told her I loved her. She told me she loved me too. A hug and a kiss, it was what I needed, from my Mommy.
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11 Jan 17
Thank you Gillian. I of course was a bit panicked when the doctor administered the test. One was mathematical. I told her that it wasn't happening, because without a calculator or pen and paper I couldn't do it. I am not one that excelled in math and never will. Even so, she said it was all stress related and was hindering my ability to focus. So, needless to say, I have to find ways to reduce the stress in my life.
11 Jan 17
Truly heartbreaking. I am glad you got to spend some time with your mom and got that hug and kiss you so needed. I teared up reading your post. Moms are so special and there are moments when we need them. I miss my mom so much. What I wouldn't give for one more hug, one more kiss, one more I love you.
12 Jan 17
I worked as an Activity Director in a home for the aged for over a decade. I miss doing that. I love seniors, they have so much to share. You're lucky that your mother is still alive and able to know you, and I'm glad that you got the kiss and hug from her that you needed. I must have needed one from my Dad last night, he's been gone since 2009 and I had a dream with him in it. Those are my favorite dreams.
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11 Jan 17
How I love this post. It's so obvious the love you two share. You are so blessed to have her around. And I'm thrilled that you've been able to rule out dementia! I had some time when my stress levels were extremely high and my memory was completely shot. And I had worried about that on top of everything else. But as the stress dissipated, my memory came back. I hope yours will, too!