He Would Be 47 Years Old Today
@BelleStarr (61047)
United States
January 17, 2017 5:57pm CST
Every year on January 17th I can't help but think about my baby son Daniel. He never had a chance to live. He was stillborn . He was alive and kicking the night before and was a day overdue. He was just a year and a half younger than my eldest son.
In those days mothers were not allowed to hold their baby to say goodbye so I never saw what he looked like. It has been eating at my heart for the last 47 years. It is a very sad day for me.
I am so delighted that my eldest son named his son after his brother and my eldest grandson is another Daniel, it is like he finally had a chance to be part of our lives in a physical way.
I do believe that I will meet him someday this baby that I knew so well as I carried him. Happy Birthday Daniel, Mommy has never forgotten you and loves you to pieces.
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@Happy2BeMe (99399)
• Canada
18 Jan 17
Happy Birthday to your precious Daniel I do believe you will be reunited someday. It is sad that you never got to hold him or to say good bye. It is so nice that your son named his son after his brother. I am sure Daniel watches over him. My thoughts are with you.
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
19 Jan 17
Thank you so much, this is always a hard day for me. But, having my grandson Danny to hold and love and watch grow up did make me feel a bit better. Danny is 28 now.
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@jstory07 (134458)
• Roseburg, Oregon
19 Jan 17
@BelleStarr Times sure have changed/
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
19 Jan 17
It is an open wound that never closes it just gets a little less painful but never goes away.
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@AbbyGreenhill (45496)
• United States
18 Jan 17
You will meet one day, you have to believe that.
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
19 Jan 17
I do believe it and it is what gives me comfort.
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@fishtiger58 (29823)
• Momence, Illinois
18 Jan 17
I'm so sorry for your loss. My dad was Daniel and I named my youngest son after him.
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
19 Jan 17
@fishtiger58 Bost great names, I have Steven, Jason and Kasey as my live children and I named the miscarriage Jessie since I am not sure if it was a boy or a girl.
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@fishtiger58 (29823)
• Momence, Illinois
19 Jan 17
@BelleStarr My mom had problems with miscarrying babies too, and one stillborn. I have been lucky in that way, I had two pregnancies and two live births. My oldest is Samuel and youngest is Daniel.
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@ilocosboy (45157)
• Philippines
18 Jan 17
Mother's love will never diminish, it's like a flame always burning in the heart.
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
19 Jan 17
What a beautiful way to express mothers love and it is so true, thank you.
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@ilocosboy (45157)
• Philippines
20 Jan 17
@BelleStarr thank you also for such a nice words
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
19 Jan 17
Thank you so much Janet, I am sad that you have not the comfort of an afterlife but I am so confident that it exists that I know you will see your daughter someday and it will be wonderful.
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@Tampa_girl7 (48929)
• United States
19 Jan 17
I also believe that you be with him one day
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
19 Jan 17
Yes that is the only comfort we have isn't it. Thanks Marie.
@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
19 Jan 17
Thank you, yes I was crushed and then obsessed with having another baby. It was a very difficult time in my life.
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So glad your son named your grandson after him. 
@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
19 Jan 17
Thank you Kristen and yes everytime I held my grandson I thought of my son.
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@KristenH (33351)
• Cuyahoga Falls, Ohio
19 Jan 17
@BelleStarr You're welcome. I don't know why my answer posted twice here. A glitch?
@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
19 Jan 17
Yes he made me very happy when he named his son Daniel.
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
19 Jan 17
Thank you Valerie, that is my comfort in all of this.
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@just4him (306113)
• Green Bay, Wisconsin
20 Jan 17
@BelleStarr Mine too. I've lost three to miscarriage.
@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
18 Jan 17
Thank you, you would think after all this time if would be better but it never goes away.
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
19 Jan 17
Me too, that is the worst part. I am always wondering which of his siblings he resembled.
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
19 Jan 17
Thank you Julia, I so appreciate the hug and the kind words.
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@PatZAnthony (14752)
• Charlotte, North Carolina
18 Jan 17
It is so terrible that parents did not have the 'rights' they should have had. It is nice that you named your son. We have a friend (88 now) who had a daughter that was never named on paper. However, she referred to her by a name she had chosen. Some don't understand why, while others will get it. This was a life you expected to be part of yours, and he is, even if he is not here.
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
19 Jan 17
Exactly, we had chosen this name for him Daniel Edward and it will always be his. Thanks Pat.
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@moffittjc (118435)
• Gainesville, Florida
18 Jan 17
What a beautiful tribute to Daniel! I couldn't help but tear up while reading this! I have no doubts that you will one day get to meet Daniel in heaven. And it's especially touching that you have kept his memory alive in your heart all these years.
Happy Birthday Daniel!
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
19 Jan 17
Thank you Jeff, it means a lot to me to have these Birthday wishes for the sweet little baby.
@MarshaMusselman (38652)
• Midland, Michigan
19 Jan 17
That is so sad, Izabelle. I can't imagine being that close to touching a baby and not getting the chance. Things have sure changed regarding having babies and allowing the fathers to be a part of the birthing process, haven't they? I had a miscarriage when I was nineteen, but it was within the first three months, I think, and the baby wasn't formed enough to know what it would have been.
I was going to use your shorter name, but honestly, I can't remember what it was exactly. You could change it on your profile to include what you said before in your other post.
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
19 Jan 17
It's just Iz but I am afraid no one will know me if I totally change it.
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@MarshaMusselman (38652)
• Midland, Michigan
20 Jan 17
@BelleStarr You could put the 'Iz' either before or after the Belle Starr with maybe a hyphen between the two. Your @ name will never change and people could double check with that too. But if you tacked on the IZ, then folks would get used to seeing that and maybe down the road you could change the first part to just that.
@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
19 Jan 17
Yes it is that thought that gives me comfort. Thanks Thelma.
@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
19 Jan 17
Yes that is the heart wrenching part, never having been able to hug and kiss him.
