I will rely on me more.

@sharon6345 (109603)
United States
February 1, 2017 6:36pm CST
I am down a lot due to my depression and stressful life. But I am so much stronger at times then I realize. I need to put more faith in myself. I need to know that no matter how my body is breaking down. I still have life left in me. My nurse wanted to order me a cane or walker due to me falling down. I said no and she said I needed one. I said miss. I am 47 and I don't look like I feel. No one can look at me and tell I go through what I do. I would be so embarrassed to use those things. She could not believe what I said. However I was telling the truth. I could not do that to myself. What I did agree to was the life alert button on my neck. I am going to try to lift myself up emotionally and lean on me more for the help I need. When I feel like I am going to fall I will sit down like I do in my house. But I know it's best to remain home as often as possible. G is not taking it well that I am dealing with all this. he was not even able to get the words out today when I almost fell on him twice. I don't know how to feel about that but it's ok. I will be ok. I am a survivor and that is all I need to remember.
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• United States
2 Feb
Wow. You are a very strong person. Please take care of yourself, you know yourself best!!
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@sharon6345 (109603)
• United States
2 Feb
I am seeing that more each day.
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@celticeagle (115058)
• Boise, Idaho
2 Feb
My home care nurse told me the same thing. I told her no also. I did use a walker while she was coming to see me however. It did help me because I get so weak when depressed. I would get a wheel chair before I would use a stupid walker. I think it is amazing what you are able to do. I worry about you some though. Staying home is a good idea I think. G is worried about you. Take care of you!
@sharon6345 (109603)
• United States
2 Feb
He is shocked at how I look and that I need help. he can't get it.
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@celticeagle (115058)
• Boise, Idaho
2 Feb
@sharon6345 .....Pretty straight forward I would say. Maybe he just needs some time.
@Happy2BeMe (70192)
• Canada
2 Feb
You are a strong, independent woman and you can handle anything live throws your way. You may got down but you never give up.
@sharon6345 (109603)
• United States
2 Feb
No I have not given up not ever. Thanks i like that.
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@Happy2BeMe (70192)
• Canada
2 Feb
@shaggin (26885)
• United States
2 Feb
Are you doing therapy to strengthen your muscles or will that not even help? I can imagine not wanting to be embarrassed with a cane. I do not go out much because did my anxiety and there have been times where I was weak and had to sit down right where I was or I would have been hurt when I fainted standing up. If you have to sit on the sidewalk all the sudden when you feel you will fall then do it. It is better to be embarrassed for a minute when someone sees it happen then to fall and wind up in the hospital.
@sharon6345 (109603)
• United States
2 Feb
It's nice that you understand me. That is what I will do. I am going to limit going out as much too.
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@jstory07 (58267)
• Roseburg, Oregon
2 Feb
Admitting that you have any type of problem is the first step to feeling better.
@sharon6345 (109603)
• United States
2 Feb
Telling that woman all the stuff I deal with was shameful.
@NJChicaa (29957)
• United States
2 Feb
That is a good fighting attitude.
@sharon6345 (109603)
• United States
2 Feb
You always make me feel good. Thanks.
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