Why did he delete me?

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Why did he delete me? Okay, this question isn't as petty as it sounds, it has depth. Besides this is my blog! and this is what's on my mind today. About two years ago, I saw on Facebook that one of my friends commented on a status, and I thought it was funny so I went to the person who made the statuse's profile and I saw they were really clever so I added them. To me, Facebook isn't about adding people you know.. it is about adding people that put cool stuff on your newsfeed! The guy I added, we shall call him Ben, was in his fifties and so clever that he pretty much made my Facebook experience. Like, the guy is hilarious. And he's wheelchair bound because he has muscle atrophy or something like that. Since he is disabled, he had a caregiver living with him. I enjoyed seeing his updates everyday, especially about his passive aggressiveness towards his lazy caregiver- it was funny. Ben and I developed a bond. We would message each other sometimes (light conversation) but we mostly commented on each others stuff, like I'd ask him for updates on his incompetent caregiver. I created a FB group that was a dream journal, and I added him to the group and he contributed a lot to that group as well. Ben never made it a secret that he found me so desirable, he basically always said that I was the most beautiful girl he's ever seen, or the hottest ect. It may sound creepy due to our age difference but I can really say that he flirted with such tact and wittiness that it wasn't creepy at all! He even had a nickname for me , "Fitty" ... for Fifty Shades of Grey. There was mutual affection between us, but I was not attracted to him at all, of course. Not even remotely, he was just a pleasant online friend. I always found it odd that when I commented on his posts he would only answer me half the time. And I didn't say weird stuff or anything. But since he wouldn't answer me on his statuses much, and he started posting a ton of statuses every day, I 'unfollowed' him. I just didn't want to see a bazillion statuses a day. But it didn't bother me, cause on my posts he would comment or like almost every post I did! His comments on my statuses were always sweet or funny. I know my friends thought he was funny too, because they would like his comments. What I'm saying is, he became a main part of my facebook, a part I was comfortable with. I also found it odd that when I messaged him, he would sometimes read the message and not reply. That was very weird behavior to me, for one, because on my statuses he would say how much he loved my mind - and also because when he would message me it would be funny, flirtatious and friendly. This guy was hard to read. He acted like he adored me on public posts but sometimes ignored me in private messages? Says he fantasizes about me but stops messaging me mid conversation? Even a few times, Ben asked me to move in with him and be his caregiver, ( I said no) and one time he literally offered to give me his house. I nicely declined. A few times he offered to give me money through PayPal - I declined the money because I wasn't about to take money from a dude in a wheelchair (though I would anyone else) ...and YES I'm aware this is beginning to sound like whut? Um dude. I know, I know, but it really didn't feel creepy at the time. It just didn't. It felt like we were friends, I knew he was attracted to me obviously. However Ben was also sort of the father figure I never had. Maybe a wise uncle or something. And besides. . . I'm an adult now. Or so I hear. Now, this month, I posted a status saying that I was deactivating my profile for awhile due to a stalking ex that won't leave me alone, who keeps making fake profiles to talk to me. I offered people to reach out to me for alternative means of communication. Ben was all like, "please don't go! you can't do this! How can I get in touch with you? I need your info!.." I gave him a few ways to get in touch with me then I deactivated my Facebook for a like a week. When I logged back on, he said he was glad I was back because he didn't get to copy down my contact info. (I was a little annoyed because, if it was important to him he would have gotten it the first time?) Coming to the end of this novel, a day after that, it was his birthday. Ben, for the few years I've known him, sends me sweet stuff on my birthday so I thought it would be rude NOT to send him something. I was a little drunk. I sent him a happy birthday message and commended him for always managing to flirt without being creepy, how witty he was, have a good birthday, I was drunk, ect. He read the message and didn't reply so in my head I was like "*#@$ you Ben." Then two days later he replied with a sweet message, so me, still being pissed that he waited that long to reply, didn't reply to his message. The last few days I've noticed he hasn't been commenting on my posts, which is not like him, so I went to his page today and saw he deleted me. I am taken aback. He was my ... friend. I'm more confused than anything . if he doesn't like me, then fine. That's the cocky part of me. Screw him. But why? What did I do? Why the hell would he do that? I don't care that he deleted me, I am just a little mad and a little hurt actually. And what is with his on and off behavior? I would rather it just one way or the other. I am not going to ask him, of course. So he can feel bad that he deleted me and give me a pity, 'spare my feelings' reply? No. I'm just so curious why.