Im completely broken
By UpbeatRae
@carebear29 (31961)
Wausau, Wisconsin
February 28, 2017 11:11pm CST
So I'm completely broken tonight. I'm making a new plan on my marriage. It got pretty upsetting and bad. All my husband did was fight with me over a ton of bs and I lost a friend I called mom. I ended up deleting her because she told my husband everything. She has a big mouth and I'm done. He fought with me in front of our son and rubbed me having no job in my face once again. I'm tired of it and deserve better. I've never felt so low in my life until I married him and to an extent I now regret. I don't know what to do anymore and his apologies after him fighting with me and useless. It's the same thing over and over.
My heart belongs to bring single. He's nothing but greedy and so much more I will not say. I'm making a new plan and will decide what to do soon. I'm best off without him because he's controlling and more. My son and I deserve a better life. Emotional and verbal abuse has to go. He even yelled about me having an iPhone and how it is useless. I have soon much I could say about him right now but won't yet even though most of you know already.
I will have more to come about this. But I'm off to bed to cry myself to sleep. Good night.
I will have more to come about this. But I'm off to bed to cry myself to sleep. Good night.5 people like this
11 responses
@owlandbutterfly (304)
• United States
1 Mar 17
Nikki, you're not broken. He's trying to break you, but you're stronger than that. It's a new day and a new month--perfect time for a new beginning. Get back up, get your son, and get out of there. I know you've posted about your concerns about finances, but there are places that can help you get back on your feet. They can connect you with therapists who can help you start processing the situation and making healthy decisions for you and your son.
Thing is, if you keep planning you're just going to keep spinning your wheels in that rut. You've posted about it at least a few times that I can remember over the past year, but nothing's really changed. I know it's scary, but look at your son. He doesn't deserve to grow up with that as his idea of a "normal" adult relationship, does he?
The time is never going to be exactly right. If you really want to change the way your life is, you have to take control and take that first step towards the better life you and your son deserve.
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@carebear29 (31961)
• Wausau, Wisconsin
2 Mar 17
thanks so much for this. it helps and makes me think a little better.
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@owlandbutterfly (304)
• United States
2 Mar 17
@carebear29 You're welcome. It's going to be challenging, but you can do it. 
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@Nawsheen (28644)
• Mauritius
2 Mar 17
@carebear29 thats good to hear. Always keep your spirits up
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@Tina30219 (81539)
• Onaway, Michigan
1 Mar 17
Good night. I am so sorry you are going through this I agree time for for some changes in your life and he is one of them.
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@carebear29 (31961)
• Wausau, Wisconsin
2 Mar 17
it is but i am dealing for the moment.
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@reskyyandi (3616)
• Indonesia
1 Mar 17
Really sad. You have to be still strong. Don't to care about what people said about you
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@carebear29 (31961)
• Wausau, Wisconsin
2 Mar 17
it is. he does it for attention i think
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@Hatley (163781)
• Garden Grove, California
7 Mar 17
@carebear29 good way to go god luck too
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@carebear29 (31961)
• Wausau, Wisconsin
7 Mar 17
i am working on it. saving money also
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@carexing25 (1819)
• Philippines
1 Mar 17
I'm sorry to hear that. it's really heartbreaking to have a husband who never understands his wife..
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