April 3 , historically a bad day.
By Faye Hazel
April 3, 2017 11:52am CST
April 3rd is historically a bad day in this family. I find that I can't make myself say "good morning" or anything of the sort, because, how could I do that and still remain true to what misery this day has inflected on us all? Let's reflect. April 3 - In 1982 - this was the day I was supposed to be born. My "due date". I'm so very happy that I was born early, on Feb.1. In 1992 or 25 years ago - we lost 2 family members on the same day due to murder. In 2013 - my mom's cancer diagnosis Also - if things are going to go bad/wrong - it seems to happen this time of year. To add insult to injury the family tragedy was enough to tip my dad over the edge into having several severe mental illnesses that punish my mom and I on a daily basis. Some number of years back there was a mass shooting that happened this day in a different state. I didn't know any of those people and I am sad and wish it didn't happen, but if it was fate , if it was going to happen anyway - I know that someone else out there is somber today, too. And in a way, that makes me feel less alone. Our extended family isn't close and I don't like bothering mom and dad with it. In the past few years I've become obsessed with the year 1991 and April 2nd as well. '91 was the last year that things could have gone any differently. It was the last chance for life to be better than what it is. April 2 - the last "normal" day. Oh well. Whatever will be will be, but I do wonder if there is any weight to numerology after all.
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• United States
So sorry for all those horrific things that happened to you and your family on this date. You shouldn't dwell on them, since it was purely coincidental. Get on with your life and be happy. By the way, April 3rd was my third grade teacher's birthday. I haven't forgotten it in all these years.
• United States
I know what you mean, because i have a few family members who have all passed around this time, but in different years. But that doesnt mean you cant move on and be happy and make it a good time of year again. Its all up to you. But sorry for all your losses and the mental health issues.
• Trinidad And Tobago
Sorry so many bad things are associated on this day for you. It's hard to tell you to walk away...but I do say to you, 'BABY STEPS'. Just take one day at a time and live it. In my troubled times I remember the wisdom of the age 'This too will pass"...and I have taken great comfort from that one statement. I have repeated that countless time...and it still comforts me. hope it does the same for you. Hope your future improves...you have my prayers.