April 3 , historically a bad day.

@FayeHazel (10731)
United States
April 3, 2017 11:52am CST
April 3rd is historically a bad day in this family. I find that I can't make myself say "good morning" or anything of the sort, because, how could I do that and still remain true to what misery this day has inflected on us all? Let's reflect. April 3 - In 1982 - this was the day I was supposed to be born. My "due date". I'm so very happy that I was born early, on Feb.1. In 1992 or 25 years ago - we lost 2 family members on the same day due to murder. In 2013 - my mom's cancer diagnosis Also - if things are going to go bad/wrong - it seems to happen this time of year. To add insult to injury the family tragedy was enough to tip my dad over the edge into having several severe mental illnesses that punish my mom and I on a daily basis. Some number of years back there was a mass shooting that happened this day in a different state. I didn't know any of those people and I am sad and wish it didn't happen, but if it was fate , if it was going to happen anyway - I know that someone else out there is somber today, too. And in a way, that makes me feel less alone. Our extended family isn't close and I don't like bothering mom and dad with it. In the past few years I've become obsessed with the year 1991 and April 2nd as well. '91 was the last year that things could have gone any differently. It was the last chance for life to be better than what it is. April 2 - the last "normal" day. Oh well. Whatever will be will be, but I do wonder if there is any weight to numerology after all.
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@andriaperry (30898)
• Anniston, Alabama
3 Apr
But you should let the past go and be happy anyways. All of that happened and its none of your fault.
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@FayeHazel (10731)
• United States
5 Apr
True, it seems unfair, I didn't do it but it feels like a punishment for those of us left behind.
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@Happy2BeMe (66784)
• Canada
3 Apr
I can see why you feel the way you do about this date. I hope that today is a good day for your and that from now on April 3rd will be a good day for you and your family.
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@FayeHazel (10731)
• United States
5 Apr
Thanks so much, we appreciate that kind thought greatly :-)
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@Happy2BeMe (66784)
• Canada
5 Apr
@FayeHazel you are welcome
@DianneN (57247)
• United States
3 Apr
So sorry for all those horrific things that happened to you and your family on this date. You shouldn't dwell on them, since it was purely coincidental. Get on with your life and be happy. By the way, April 3rd was my third grade teacher's birthday. I haven't forgotten it in all these years.
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@FayeHazel (10731)
• United States
5 Apr
Thanks for the kindness. That is amazing, what a good memory you have. Actually my mom surprised me today - I guess yesterday was her dad's birthday - I didn't know him. What a popular day in history
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@DianneN (57247)
• United States
9 Apr
@FayeHazel But ask me if I know what day it is today!
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@TRBRocks420 (60803)
• Banks, Oregon
3 Apr
You are exactly 26 days older than me lol and, sorry about everything that happened, just give it to God and, move on, that's all we can do. Very sad though.
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@FayeHazel (10731)
• United States
5 Apr
Lol, isn't it funny how when you're a kid being older is like an honor, ah that changes oh-so-soon though. Thank you for the reminder, sometimes I forget to bring God my troubles but I know he can handle them all...
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@1creekgirl (8329)
• United States
3 Apr
I'm so sorry. I know all of this weighs heavy on you and I'm glad we're here to offer virtual hugs.
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@FayeHazel (10731)
• United States
5 Apr
THank you so much. :-) *hugs*
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@Courtlynn (47112)
• United States
3 Apr
I know what you mean, because i have a few family members who have all passed around this time, but in different years. But that doesnt mean you cant move on and be happy and make it a good time of year again. Its all up to you. But sorry for all your losses and the mental health issues.
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@FayeHazel (10731)
• United States
5 Apr
I know, there has been some suggestion of being happy, celebrating the happy memories, but for now, the happy memories are far to close to the sad ones. THanks for the kind thoughts.
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@Kandae11 (25590)
3 Apr
You are not alone - even though I can't recall specific unfortunate incidents around this time. I have always heard it said to beware during the season of Lent. It is the feeling that the devil is more active during that period.
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@FayeHazel (10731)
• United States
5 Apr
That's interesting, thanks for sharing. I hadn't heard the devil active around lent theory. I wonder what time of year it was when the devil tempted Christ before the crucifixion ? Hmm thank you for the new way to look at this.
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@JudyEv (96728)
• Bunbury, Australia
4 Apr
You were born well before your due date weren't you? It is strange how some dates achieve such significance.
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@FayeHazel (10731)
• United States
5 Apr
I was pretty early and tiny from what I hear. :-)
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@JudyEv (96728)
• Bunbury, Australia
5 Apr
@FayeHazel I should think you would have been.
@Ronrybs (7075)
• London, England
3 Apr
April hasn't been at all kind. Still, I am in the numerology is weightless group!
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@FayeHazel (10731)
• United States
5 Apr
Probably so, but I know some people who have an odd fixation or avoidance of certain dates.
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@Ronrybs (7075)
• London, England
5 Apr
@FayeHazel I've been thinking about it and don't think I am overly worried by any one day, though I do have a downer on Christmas Day and treat it like a normal day!
@much2say (34540)
• United States
3 Apr
Oh my. Sorry to hear about things that happened to your family on this particular day throughout the years. I do hope today will actually be a better day - and everyday after this.
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@FayeHazel (10731)
• United States
5 Apr
Thank you so much *hug* :-)
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@much2say (34540)
• United States
7 Apr
@Gillygirl (15292)
• Sutton, England
3 Apr
I agree with Andrea, may be it is coincidental bad luck. I am sorry so many bad things happened to you in April.
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@FayeHazel (10731)
• United States
5 Apr
Thanks for the thought... I suppose these things were going to happen at some point in time.... but still... :/
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@Gillygirl (15292)
• Sutton, England
5 Apr
@megatron777 (3841)
• Guam
3 Apr
Thanks for sharing.
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@FayeHazel (10731)
• United States
4 Apr
Thanks for reading
• Guam
4 Apr
@FayeHazel No problem.
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• Trinidad And Tobago
4 Apr
Sorry so many bad things are associated on this day for you. It's hard to tell you to walk away...but I do say to you, 'BABY STEPS'. Just take one day at a time and live it. In my troubled times I remember the wisdom of the age 'This too will pass"...and I have taken great comfort from that one statement. I have repeated that countless time...and it still comforts me. hope it does the same for you. Hope your future improves...you have my prayers.
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@FayeHazel (10731)
• United States
5 Apr
Thank you so much and "this too shall pass" does help. I appreciate all the prayers I can get, thank you for your kindness.
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@shshiju (9189)
• Cochin, India
4 Apr
I can understand your worries about the misery date April 3. Wish you that future Aprils will come with cheer ups and joy.
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@FayeHazel (10731)
• United States
5 Apr
Thanks so much, that is very kind of you. :-)
@teamfreak16 (35142)
• Colorado Springs, Colorado
4 Apr
Hang in there, I guess?
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@FayeHazel (10731)
• United States
5 Apr
Ah, I try... and now this day is done for the rest of the year
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@sabtraversa (9810)
• Italy
3 Apr
I don't think those are coincidences either, I sometimes become obsessed with numbers too. I hope this April 3rd is going well for you against all odds.
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@FayeHazel (10731)
• United States
5 Apr
Thanks - I am happy to have that day out of the way for another year. My mom told me something surprising today - I guess it would be her dad's birthday. I didn't know him. Oh dear...
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@Corbin5 (78665)
• United States
3 Apr
I am hoping this April 3rd is a day that has no sadness added to it. Yes, many families have dates that just bring memories of bad happenings on that date.
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@FayeHazel (10731)
• United States
5 Apr
Thanks! I am happy the day is over, for another year :-)
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@Shwetasingh (1364)
3 Apr
Ohh.thats really bed whatever has happened but I think now you should try to overcome your emotional backlog.
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@FayeHazel (10731)
• United States
5 Apr
It's a shame healing is painful :/
@Mass_Sonu (1041)
• India
3 Apr
@FayeHazel That's really sad & devastating to know. Hoping everything will be terrific for you from now on!
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@FayeHazel (10731)
• United States
5 Apr
Thanks! I appreciate that a lot.
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