The Clown I can somewhat remember...
April 8, 2017 2:02pm CST
I had meningitis when I was a very little girl. I think around two years old. From what I was told, they were scared that I would not make it. I have memories, some that were assisted (helped to remember) by my family members. However, I have my own memories of a dark room with just a little bit of light. I remember laying in a bed and I remember a nurse who brought me a clown. The clown I remember more than the nurse, which is where the assistance came in.. My family sort of reminded me of the nurse. I would like to say I remember how I felt then, but I really don't. I don't think I was conscious all of the time... I am sure I was very moody when I was because I have always been moody when I don't feel good.. .especially if people are bothering me. That wasn't my first brush with potential death though.. My mom's body tried to push me UP instead of down and so I had to be emergency c-sectioned out of her. I was told we both could have died then. The last one that I would classify as a near death is when I was swimming in the sea with my best friend and we got pushed out further than expected.. We swam and swam to shore. I think adrenaline alone saved me then... I don't even really think of these things anymore.. but another person's discussion brought them to my mind.
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• United States
8 Apr 17
I understand what you mean by "feel darkness." I can't remember the feelings but I can remember waking up several times, and I can remember feeling the fear of my family... But at that time I didn't understand what it was. Yes "assisted" because while I am almost certain the memories of waking up are my own, I don't want to assume that they are. My near miss was talked about for many many many years.
8 Apr 17
@ScribbledAdNauseum It can happen that the real memory you have and the stories you've heard repeatedly over the years blur and that in the end, you aren't sure what you remember and what comes from stories. I think everybody has such experiences.
• United States
9 Apr 17
@celticeagle I think I made myself watch that movie in it's full length one time and then that was it. I used to watch snippets of it, but it was just too creepy for me. I don't think I will go see the new "IT" in theaters. It may not be as scary, but then again it could be even scarier than the original. Especially with all the advancements in movie technology that has been made since the first one came out.