Trying Not to Think of Things

United States
May 28, 2017 1:43am CST
I've been trying not to feel too anxious over my upcoming surgery, but no matter what I try to do to distract myself from thinking about it, it keeps finding its way into my thoughts and then the anxiety flares up. I know it's just a simple hernia repair surgery, but any surgery is risky and I always worry about the 'what it's,' even though I know it does no good to worry about those things. Nobody can predict the future. I'm trying not to let my nervousness ruin my Saturday night, but it's hard! Life is really short and I wish I could just live in the moment and not ever worry about anything. Maybe someday I'll learn not to focus so much on things that haven't happened yet. This next week is going to go by fast. I have a ton of things to do to prepare for surgery on Thursday. I need to do laundry so I have clean clothes and clean pjs to wear after my surgery, plus I need to wash our blankets and change the sheets on our bed. This would be easier if I had easy access to a washer and dryer, but I don't, so I'm either going to have to pack everything down to the laundromat at the end of the block or go to my parents' house to do laundry (which is always an all day event.) I need to reschedule my vein ablation before Thursday too, since that's scheduled to be done next week and I won't be able to do it. On Tuesday my sister is coming over to help me clean, and tomorrow we are going out to celebrate her 35th birthday early, since it's on Friday and I won't be able to go anywhere or do anything to celebrate on that day. The last time I had a laparoscopic procedure, the three days after the surgery were the worst. Luckily my boyfriend will be home to take care of me. I know he's looking forward to having a short work week, but I wish his time off were under better circumstances. I just hope this surgery goes well and resolves some of my pelvic pain. A femoral hernia is a dangerous thing to live with, so I'm glad to be getting it fixed -- it's just the actual process of fixing it and recovering from it is going to suck. But, I'll get through it. I always do.
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@sissy15 (5111)
• United States
29 May
It sounds like it's going to be an exhausting week. I would just try to focus on other things, that's one way to help with anxiety. It's what I've been doing currently, I have my moments where it's really bad but I try to refocus my attention on other things. Things will be ok, and I'll make sure to send some Hugh your way. I'll try to get to the post office tomorrow or Tuesday so you will at least have it during your recovery. It usually takes about 3 days to get to you. Maybe we can have our Hugh marathon soon, I think we could both use it.
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• United States
29 May
Thanks, and I have been trying to keep myself distracted. It just seems like there's not enough time to get everything done. Tomorrow's a holiday, then Tuesday Leanne is coming over to help me clean, then I have to have all the laundry done by Wednesday night (not to mention I have an appointment with my therapist on Wednesday morning) and then Thursday is the big day. Ugh. I agree we could both use some Hugh!
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@sissy15 (5111)
• United States
29 May
@Srbageldog I know that feeling. I have a thousand things to do and zero energy to do any of them. I am just kind of in this funk and I'm feeling depressed and my anxiety is everywhere. I get what it's like to have a difficult time with refocusing it at times. There's always time for some Hugh no matter how busy or depressed.
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• United States
29 May
@sissy15 I was hoping to stay home and not do anything tomorrow, but I guess I will probably end up going to my parents and doing laundry. I'll still have to do some more laundry on Wednesday (because our blankets need washed and my parents washing machine isn't big enough for that,) but at least I won't have to spend all afternoon at the laundromat. I'm sorry you're going through such a rough time. It's natural you're feeling depressed and anxious considering what's going on in your life. I really hope things get better. And yes, there is always time for Hugh.
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@Courtlynn (51043)
• United States
28 May
I hope you can relax a little but can understand why its hard to.
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• United States
29 May
The days are going by too fast and I don't feel ready for another surgery. But, I'll get through it, and am trying not to focus too much on it for now...no good wasting the whole week freaking out over it.
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@Courtlynn (51043)
• United States
29 May
@Srbageldog no but it happens
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@Yadah04 (2927)
• Philippines
28 May
undergoing a surgery sure keeps one anxious. i hope it will turn out the best way possible. just stay positive. and pray.
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• United States
28 May
Thank you. I don't think anyone enjoys surgery!