Moving Forward

June 1, 2017 11:33am CST
After dealing with the death of my husband I have had a lot of time to myself to think about things. At the age of 45 I am now a widow and a single mother that baiscally has to start over and figure what the rest of my life is going to be and going to look like. Everything has been processed and sent in and I should be getting the life insurance settlement that he left me by the end of week next week. So I have decided to move forward with plan b and start looking at some properties next week. I have also decided to go back to school and finish my degree and Im going to take the state test for my bail bonds license. This has been my worst nightmare come to true with all this but I know I have to face the fact that life whatever that might be has to go on. and I also know that my husband would want it this way. I just miss him so much everytime I wake up and realize this isnt some horrific nightmare my heart breaks all over again. While the money will help take care of the kids and all I'd give all back in a split second if it meant him being here.
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• Lakewood, Colorado
1 Jun
You sound like you are dealing with everything in a very courageous manner @AutumnSnow. I am very proud of you for keeping going. Some in your shoes would already be caving in. It takes a lot of guts to keep moving and doing things that will be good for the future, a future without Him. Again, I am so sorry for your deep loss. The shock must have been terrible, and waking up like that is shocking on a constant basis. I am happy that you are updating us here as to your progress and I wait to see what kind of property you will find now. That is a great idea to go back to school for your bonds license. You really are still quite young and how are the children doing? Yes hope everything goes now without a hitch for you to receive the insurance money too. Take care brave one.
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@celticeagle (113041)
• Boise, Idaho
2 Jun
I'm glad to hear that you have a plan. That is great! I'm glad to hear you feel that you can move on a little.
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@BelleStarr (30037)
• Portland, Connecticut
2 Jun
At least you have to the money which allows you to have some options. I am so sorry for your loss and I realize that nothing I or anyone else says can help ease the pain. But, you have your children and life goes on and you will just have to carry on and see what life sends your way. I am sending a hug and my prayers.
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@LadyDuck (113367)
• Switzerland
2 Jun
This is a sad and difficult moment. It's hard to take decision when the pain is still so horrible. I think that what you are doing is on the right direction. I feel very sorry for you.
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@prashu228 (20528)
• India
2 Jun
I am so sorry ..may you get all the strength from Almighty..no one can fill your loss..
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@HazySue (16004)
• United States
1 Jun
I am so sorry to hear of your loss. It is a hard thing to handle. It sounds like you are preparing for a life that would make him proud. I wish you the best. Stay strong and keep moving.
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@Courtlynn (42577)
• United States
1 Jun
I wish I knew what to say.. only thing I can think of is I'm sorry. And I wish you well.
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@Happy2BeMe (62516)
• Canada
1 Jun
I am so sorry. Nobody is ever ready for something like that to happen. I think that you have the right attitude. He would be proud of you and how you are handling things. Everything takes time. You and your children are in my thoughts every day.
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@luispas (1779)
• Venezuela
1 Jun
Oh :'( what a difficult moment. I can understand you in a way, I lose my dad 2 years ago and I remember that I couldn't believe it, I was in a stage of denial and when I really knew how everything would be was tough. But with all of that I learn a few things, we need to me strong and think that everything that happen to us has a reason. And time, time heals everything. So from the bottom of my heart I wish you the best, you'll front this.
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• United States
1 Jun
Your heart will heal eventually, but you will never forget him. He will always be close to you and the children. I wish you comfort in this difficult time.
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@AmbiePam (45049)
• United States
7 Jun
I wish I knew a way to help ease your suffering. I'm so sorry you have to go through it.
• Rochester, New York
5 Jun
My condolences, You and your family are in my prayers. Blessed be