I wish I could tell someone.
June 18, 2017 11:01am CST
I don't know what came over me today. I went down to the car to get something from Adrian. I got in the car and he had somewhere to go. I went with him to that location. While riding in the car I began to feel so happy. The tears began to swell in my eyes. I could not understand it at the time. We were listening to old songs that we enjoy. I did not want to get out the vehicle. I began to cry so he pulled over to give me a hug. When he hugged me I felt the best feeling come over me.He went to kiss me and I turned my head. He let me go and began driving. We talked a little on the way home. But as we reached my building. I gave him a kiss. I am not sure why or how but I did. We are going out next week and I am looking forward to it. Maybe a pool or beach if possible. Oh boy, what did I do.
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@Courtlynn Oh ok then that is what is the issue. I am going to try to just ease it down then. I think that fear has taken over for the most part. The one thing I know is that no matter how I try I can't get over him. We are so close and it's wonderful but moving past the pain is very hard. I think what holds me the most is that I till have two years on paper work with him. If anything happens with him and I then I get arrested. .
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@celticeagle We had a nice talk tonight and he said he will give me all the time I need. I told him I can't handle any kind of heat aches. I let him know I almost lost my freedom and home over him cheating before. He kept telling me he will not ever do that again. he said he will wait however long it takes to earn my trust again. I pretty much see he made a lot of changes. I just need him to be easy and not rush me. I na't imagine him and I in the bed right now. I am not ready for that at all. I just know his daughter is very happy for she knows he loves me. But she also wants me to take my time. She said to me tonight so you're going to be my mom again. I was laughing. She is coming with my godson in the morning. I am just glad that now I can go out with them as a family like before. Adrain and I are going out of state together that could be really nice for us. I had fun with him but I could not let him touch me. I did give him a hug and kiss goodnight. But that is all I cna manage right now. I have a lot to overcome. I do know that I am happy to stop looking for love in all the wrong places.