~The Thoughts And Pain~
By Jennifer
@LovingMyBabies (85127)
Valdosta, Georgia
August 1, 2017 10:37am CST
The tears flow down my bright red cheeks uncontrollaby.
The pounding in my head begs the tears to stop.
The thought of going through another pain filled day is too much to take.
The fear entangled around my heart and soul won't release it's grip.
The days just come and go, blank pages not being filled with joy of any kind.
The lack of basic needs not being met is enough to want to end this pain...
The love I see on my kids faces pushes me through.
The thought of leaving them behind is too much sadness to handle.
The thought of better days ahead I try to keep in front of my mind.
The only thought now is when will all this pain end?
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33 responses
@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
1 Aug 17
@Hazysue Thank you. Yes these are my feelings right now.
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@HazySue (39264)
• Gouverneur, New York
1 Aug 17
@LovingMyBabies I am so sorry you are feeling that way. This too will pass.
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@vsai2008 (11796)
• India
2 Aug 17
I hope so too @LovingMyBabies
I hope this sad phase passes off soon and everything turns normal
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@Happy2BeMe (99399)
• Canada
1 Aug 17
Better days are ahead. I know those feelings well. I was there many times when I was raising my children. My kids are what kept me going. They needed me and even though I was falling apart inside I had to be strong for them. You can do this and you will get through it. Life is far from ideal now but things will get better..hang in there.
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@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
1 Aug 17
@Happy2beme Yeah I'm having a hard time with everything lately. My kids are keeping me alive at this point.
Thank you, I hope so. I'm ready for things to improve.
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@RasmaSandra (73368)
• Daytona Beach, Florida
1 Aug 17
Most heartfelt and expressive poetry. Well done with poignant thoughts.
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@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
1 Aug 17
@Rasmasandra Thank you, I need to get these thoughts written sometimes.
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@moffittjc (118427)
• Gainesville, Florida
2 Aug 17
Thank you for sharing what's in your heart right now. You have such an eloquent way of expressing yourself. No matter what obstacles you face in life, always persevere and push forward. If not for yourself, always do it for the sake of your children. There are many days where that's the only thing keeping me going in life. I love my children too much to ever give up.
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@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
2 Aug 17
@moffittjc Thank you, I usually write expressively when I am feeling down.
I am trying to remember this is temporary but apparently I am not as strong as I thought.
Not eating, not sleeping, stressing and barely surviving has definitely taken it's toll on me!
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@moffittjc (118427)
• Gainesville, Florida
3 Aug 17
@LovingMyBabies I wish there was more all of us myLotters could do to help out the situation. Please hang in there and don't give up.
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@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
2 Aug 17
@DianneN Thank you. I know with time this will just be a memory.
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@andriaperry (116860)
• Anniston, Alabama
1 Aug 17
Better day are coming, you can do this!
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@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
1 Aug 17
@andriaperry Thank you. You seem to have more faith in my ability than I have right now. =(
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@celticeagle (158958)
• Boise, Idaho
1 Aug 17
Very well expressed. I'm sorry this is happening in your life. You sure don't deserve it . I hope there is a light in the dark tunnel soon for you. Sending you some positive energy.
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@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
2 Aug 17
@celticeagle Thank you. I am sure things will improve soon for us.
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@lovinangelsinstead21 (36850)
• Pamplona, Spain
1 Aug 17
Beautiful poem Jen you should write more and I love the photo too.
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@lovinangelsinstead21 (36850)
• Pamplona, Spain
2 Aug 17
@LovingMyBabies
Don´t want you to get down.
I usually write when I am feeling happier or feeling strongly about something but on the positive side mostly.
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@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
2 Aug 17
@lovinangelsinstead21 Thank you. I write well when I am down usually.
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@TiarasOceanView (70035)
• United States
1 Aug 17
Yes we can get through anything for our kids. That is why I am still here.
And remember your husband too. I am sure he feels down too.
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@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
2 Aug 17
@TiarasOceanView Yes we can. I know he's down as well, we are arguing more lately and it's adding more stress to us. I hate the whole thing.
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@TiarasOceanView (70035)
• United States
2 Aug 17
@LovingMyBabies Well no wonder..it is way stressful..so much responsibility. It is a terrible situation. It is no joke trying to get settled in a very unstable situation.
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@LeaPea2417 (36434)
• Toccoa, Georgia
1 Aug 17
That is a very well written, passion filled poem. You do have a talent at expressing yourself. But, please do know Jesus is with you and you have a purpose in this world. Better days are ahead.
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@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
2 Aug 17
@Leapea2417 Thank you. =) I do know God is with us. I am trying to have faith.
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@Tampa_girl7 (48908)
• United States
1 Aug 17
Oh Jennifer , your poem is so emotional. 
I'm so sorry that you are feeling this way. Just trust in God. He has a plan for you . Hang on to your faith.
, your poem is so emotional. I'm so sorry that you are feeling this way. Just trust in God. He has a plan for you . Hang on to your faith.2 people like this
@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
2 Aug 17
@Tampa_girl7 Thank you, I am trying to stay in faith. Just having a hard time right now.
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@bluesa (15023)
• Johannesburg, South Africa
1 Aug 17
You are going through so much right now, that you are understandably overwhelmed. But, like my Mom says, we don't know what tomorrow holds, all our troubles could vanish. Let the love on your kids faces and the hope of a better tomorrow soothe you a little in these tough times.xx
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@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
2 Aug 17
@bluesa Yeah, things are very overwhelming right now. =( Your right, things could change for the better tomorrow and I hope so!
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@bluesa (15023)
• Johannesburg, South Africa
3 Aug 17
@LovingMyBabies I hope so for you too.xx
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@Courtlynn (66921)
• United States
1 Aug 17
Good post but i'm sorry you are feeling this way..
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@ElusiveButterfly (45940)
• United States
2 Aug 17
Focus on the good things and the bad will lessen. Keep yourself busy with your loves. This is a temporary bump in the road that is passable and you will get around it. Big hugs to you lady.
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@ElusiveButterfly (45940)
• United States
2 Aug 17
@LovingMyBabies I wish I could drive down and take you out for a day with all the kids. Sounds like you need a fun day,
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@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
3 Aug 17
@ElusiveButterfly Thanks, I wish you could too!
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@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
2 Aug 17
@Elusivebutterfly Yeah, I am trying not to focus on my stomach screaming at me to eat something we don't have. I'm trying not to focus on the smallest space we have ever lived in as a family.
But I am not as strong as I should be I suppose because this is really killing me-all of it.
Someday I hope to be able to look back and this will be just a bad memory. But right now I am hurting, and worried.
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@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
2 Aug 17
@toniganzon Thank you, me too.
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@Letranknight2015 (51499)
• Philippines
2 Aug 17
Why? what happened to you lately? I hope you be more courageous since the children loves and needs you the most. You are probably stress out over the last few days. Don't give up, that's all I could tell you.
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@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
2 Aug 17
@letranknight2015 Well, we became homeless with 5 children. We don't have enough food to eat. We are in a 1 bedroom apartment with 7 people. Our truck broke down on us and the water pump had to be replaced. We are out of money and my husband won't get paid for a week...
I think the better question would have been what hasn't happened to us lately...
@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
2 Aug 17
@marlina Thank you. My husband will start working full time again tomorrow so things will improve. It's just been tough the last few days.
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@kobesbuddy (74528)
• East Tawas, Michigan
1 Aug 17
Jennifer, please go into the emergency, of a nearby hospital! You can get relief from that agonizing pain, very quickly! There's no reason for you to suffer this way, every single day:( We will pray for you, immediately! Love, Kharla
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@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
2 Aug 17
@kobesbuddy No, it's not physical pain-it's emotional pain from stress and worry. Thank you for praying.
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@kobesbuddy (74528)
• East Tawas, Michigan
2 Aug 17
@LovingMyBabies I have experienced deep, emotional pain and it's something you do not deserve!:(
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@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
2 Aug 17
@RubyHawk Thank you. I hope so too. =)
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@RubyHawk (99425)
• Atlanta, Georgia
2 Aug 17
@LovingMyBabies Have you checked at the welfare office. Surely they could supply you with food stamps.
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@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
2 Aug 17
@RubyHawk We do get food stamps already but we don't get them until the 7th. It's just a matter of waiting til then.
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