Build Up, During and After~
By celticeagle
@celticeagle (159008)
Boise, Idaho
August 14, 2017 9:06pm CST
I am subject to panic attacks. Very sensitive to anxiety. It starts with a stomach ache and grows into a horrible display of emotions and unrealistic thinking. Others don't usually know(unless,in the midst of it all I post something or talk to my BFF) and couldn't possibly understand how deep and dark it can get at times. Thank goodness I am on a good medication that helps and this doesn't happen more than two or three times a year.
I have to get a grip on myself. If I haven't lost it too badly I can talk myself back from the edge as it were. But, if I am lost in it I am just gone. Shaking, crying, pathetic. Do you ever have these attacks of panic and anxiety? And then, when it is all over, do you think to yourself "oh, did I really do all that?" And I move on as if nothing had been that bad.
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@RubyHawk (99425)
• Atlanta, Georgia
15 Aug 17
I've never had a panic attack but I worked with a woman who did. She would go into the bathroom, sit down in a corner and wring her hands and cry. It was a sad sight. It didn't happen too often so she was able to work. sorry that you have those attacks.
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@celticeagle (159008)
• Boise, Idaho
15 Aug 17
I am too. I can see the difference when I have taken my medication and when I haven't. It doesn't happen often.
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@celticeagle (159008)
• Boise, Idaho
16 Aug 17
@RubyHawk ......Only one that helps too. I even did a DNA testing and there is nothing I can take without horrible side effects.
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@RubyHawk (99425)
• Atlanta, Georgia
15 Aug 17
@celticeagle It's good that you have medicine to control your attacks.
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@sallypup (57858)
• Centralia, Washington
15 Aug 17
It depends. I try not to get that way about certain driving situations but at times, yeah it comes on. I also wonder if I limit myself cause hey, if I try that, I know I'm going to look not so fantastic so I'm not going to go there and do that. Not sure if this makes sense to you.
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@celticeagle (159008)
• Boise, Idaho
15 Aug 17
Saving face. I understand. It builds so I try to get and keep control of it. Sometimes I can and others I can't.
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@sallypup (57858)
• Centralia, Washington
15 Aug 17
@celticeagle University days got to be the pits. I could easily sail along through English and then I'd go to my Math class and bam, on my face. Prof swearing up and down that I was faking my deep not understanding issues. Just awful and that feeling followed me for years.
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@celticeagle (159008)
• Boise, Idaho
15 Aug 17
@sallypup .....What a dip! My mom had a mean teacher that effects her all her life. Those are formative years. I am lucky to have had some really good teachers. I never went to college though so perhaps I lucked out there. I was very shy growing up and I think I lived inside my own head too much.
@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
15 Aug 17
oh yes. just yesterday i was thinking if i knew who would win big brother and what my middle son was sending me for my birthday, i could just let myself give in and die. most of this came though from the fact of my life being terrible for days that daughters bf was bringing it on.
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@celticeagle (159008)
• Boise, Idaho
15 Aug 17
Living near him would give me a nervous break down. Who's names are on the lease?
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@celticeagle (159008)
• Boise, Idaho
15 Aug 17
@bunnybon7 ......You haven't a leg to stand on then. I hope he is at least half way civil.
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@bunnybon7 (50973)
• Holiday, Florida
15 Aug 17
@celticeagle unfortunately i had no choice as daughter insisted he be on it. plus ours on it.
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@much2say (53959)
• Los Angeles, California
15 Aug 17
My daughter's 12 year old friend from school had panic attacks (her mom told me), but I only witnessed it once. She is also in martial arts with us, but she's a bit shy and isn't big on "fighting". So one time at a belt test a couple years ago, she got her gear on to spar, but then she suddenly burst into tears and ran out the door. Her mother could not get her to stop crying nor get her back inside the studio. After a half hour, the Master got out there and somehow convinced her to come back inside to continue - and she did.
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@celticeagle (159008)
• Boise, Idaho
15 Aug 17
That's a shame. I hope she is seeing a professional about this. I bet she has been holding this anxiety in and fretting about it for days. Poor kid!
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@celticeagle (159008)
• Boise, Idaho
15 Aug 17
@much2say ......That is the way it is now days in too many families.
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@much2say (53959)
• Los Angeles, California
15 Aug 17
@celticeagle I know she had a therapist when she was younger after her parents split . . . but I don't know about now (but she should). The girl has a lot of issues stemming from home - and it's worse at school. The problem is her parents aren't too active about it - too busy with their own lives.
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@poehere (15126)
• French Polynesia
15 Aug 17
No, I don't have panic attacks. I do have a strange feeling in my stomach when I know something bad is about to happen. Please don't feel bad or worried about a medical condition. We are always here for you on MyLot and you can come here anytime and we will help.
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@celticeagle (159008)
• Boise, Idaho
15 Aug 17
@poehere ......I am able to usually. Right now it just keeps on and on. I'm not sure how much more I can handle. I hope I can sleep tonight.
@celticeagle (159008)
• Boise, Idaho
15 Aug 17
You have and do. I really appreciate it. It isn't like this happens a lot. Thank you.
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@poehere (15126)
• French Polynesia
15 Aug 17
@celticeagle I understand this. It is just when they do it is so hard. I am glad you have figured a way to talk your self down and come back from these attacks.
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@GardenGerty (157551)
• United States
17 Aug 17
No, I do have some anxiety from time to time. It is bad so it seems to me.I am glad you still have the cognition to know you need to talk and reason with yourself.
@toniganzon (72285)
• Philippines
15 Aug 17
I don't get panic attacks at all. Back when I was in Law School, I was waiting for the release of grades in Obligations and Contracts. The lawyer-instrutor then was well known for failing a lot of students. For a week of waiting I was having loose bowel movement. I called my sister who is a doctor and told her about my symptoms. She told me I was having anxiety. She said it will just disappear. When I got my grades, everything stopped. I was normal again.
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@celticeagle (159008)
• Boise, Idaho
15 Aug 17
And everyone is different and gets anxiety in different ways. I am just very sensitive to it.
@silvermist (19702)
• India
15 Aug 17
No,I do not.But somebody close to me goes through this.I know what you mean.
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@BelleStarr (61047)
• United States
16 Aug 17
I do and I am always quite shocked that I who am usually so much in control can give into the panic or anxiety but then, we are all much more fragile emotionally than we wish we were I am sure.
@JamesHxstatic (29242)
• Eugene, Oregon
15 Aug 17
I knew a woman once who had panic attacks and had to sit near a door even in church. I think it is more common in women than men and I know it is very difficult to live with.
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@celticeagle (159008)
• Boise, Idaho
15 Aug 17
That is sad. I have a screw ball of a family and I have committed to be here and help the daughter and her son. Sometimes it is a very hard situation.
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@celticeagle (159008)
• Boise, Idaho
15 Aug 17
@JamesHxstatic .......I guess we all do to some extent. I am just too sensitive. Got to keep workin' on that.
@JamesHxstatic (29242)
• Eugene, Oregon
15 Aug 17
@celticeagle I can tell from what you have written about it that it is hard. I came from a screwball kind or family too, so can relate.
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