It's 2 am
By Rosie Daven
October 1, 2017 6:48pm CST
and here I am, wide awake, typing and drinking another cup of coffee. I'm kinda in a pinch. Can't find a stable job, all I have at the moment is the online jobs, but these are just for beermoney. I want to have a real job, with stable income, I don't want anything extraordinary.... I'm also just venting here my frustration, because I moved from home not so long ago, and I want to prove to myself that I can do it. But literally I have to earn in 8 days 100 usd. Just... how? I won't be able to pay the rent.... I don't want to ask my mother either, I'm a friggin grown up woman. Even if I'm only 22, and young and stupid and naive, I want her to be proud of me, I want my mother to feel safe that I can take care of myself... which is clearly not true. I just hope I can get on my lucky train because my sh.tty luck is ongoing now for years. Bad decisions everywhere. I really hope you're more clever than me, and you can live a happier life than me >< Have a beautiful day! :)
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2 Oct 17
Your frustrated. I hate frustration because it does not makes me fruitful... But I encounter it everyday... All I can do to survive is to ignore it... But still it always gets me... But what can we do... The only way for good things to come is just chill and dont get frustrated. I know it is freaking impossible... But it made me able to get a job. 9 years of being a bumb? I tell you it's hell for me... Heheheh. Chill and relax. God bless.
2 Oct 17
Especially in my country. Actually I would be fine with not getting a high payment, because my plan is to make a living out of what I love, but for that I need to fund the materials beforehand, but yeah, most of the jobs treat people sh.tty, and that is my problem.