You Look Tired

United Kingdom
October 5, 2017 11:52am CST
As I turned up to give an English lesson to a home-schooled student, her mum (my friend) asked me if I was alright. She does that anyway. She told me that I looked tired. Well, I am almost always tired just lately. My friend said she didn't mind if I left early today so I could rest. The thing about rest is that I'm not very good at it. I am currently 'resting'. By that, I mean I have made and eaten dinner, written an article (a poem and some background about the poem) for Vocal, and came on here. I wonder, sometimes, what's wrong with me but then I remember that I just have a lot of things to do. Nothing particularly stressful or tiring (except for Nightmare Boss but I finish with her next week), just a lot of things. I'm currently doing three jobs (not counting freelance work). I'm also looking for jobs, which means a lot of research, filling in application forms, checking emails, feelings of hopelessness when it takes longer to fill in the application form than it would take to walk to another country or when you're met with endless rejection. However, I do have an interview coming up so that is a good thing. This is all without considering the other things like looking after my family, trying to spend time with everyone in between ferrying the small child (Mini) about to do all of his hobbies. I don't mind being busy but there are times I do feel that one full-time job would be less tiring than three part-time ones. I do seem to have been more tired than usual lately, though. I've put that down to taking on too much (it's a habit I try to belay). At the end of next week, I will finish with Nightmare Boss. I have no doubt that things will be easier then! I'll also finish the after-school clubs for this term as I don't do them over school holidays. This weekend, I am going to visit a university with the large child (Midi). It's about a 2 1/2 to 3 hour drive. His Dad is coming too and he's driving so I might have a nap in the car on the way! I am looking forward to it. It has meant having to get different people to help out with Mini. Thankfully, my big sister is able to drive him to where he needs to be, and between my Mum and my other half, they're looking after him. Not that he takes much looking after. Next weekend, I'm going out. I'm looking forward to that. It is a girls' night out for my birthday. It's been a while since I've had a proper night out. Hopefully, I'll get a bit of a rest, although I'll be working the night before, and have to get Mini somewhere the day after. That's not until afternoon, though, so I'll be sure to have a lie-in! Well, anyway, I didn't realise I looked tired until my friend said so. I didn't even feel that tired then. I have spent a lot of time feeling like I'm on autopilot and feeling like I could fall asleep at any moment! It's possible that I'm a bit poorly. I never know. I don't have time for that! I am always grateful for the free time I have but I don't always know what to do with it. So, what do you like to do in your spare time, if you get any? Can you enjoy your hobbies or are you like me and have a hard time relaxing even when you have the chance?
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6 responses
• United States
15 Oct
I am sitting in my rocking chair and deciding whether to get up and make muffins or take a nap. My granddaughter just went down for her nap. I can barely keep my eyes open. Was hoping the coffee I had would kick in.
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• United Kingdom
15 Oct
I think a nap sounds like a good idea! I'm a bit odd when it comes to coffee. It will do one of three things - make me hyper, do nothing at all, or make me fall asleep (I don't think I've known it have that effect on anyone else) so I can't risk drinking it unless I know I don't have to go anywhere or do anything important!
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• United States
15 Oct
@pumpkinjam I drink a cup, fall asleep for a bit, wake up and have energy.
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• United Kingdom
15 Oct
@ElusiveButterfly But is it the coffee or the nap that's given you the energy? :) The opposite happens to my partner when he eats too much sugar. He's like a toddler. Give him sugary sweets, he'll eat them all, bounce around the room like a crazy person trying to find things to do, then crash!
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@Shellyann36 (8619)
• United States
12 Oct
Oh goodness, you are very busy. I am glad to hear that the nightmare boss job is ending soon. You do need rest though. Try to find some spare time. I have learned the hard way that if you don't take the time things can just blow up in your face.
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• United Kingdom
13 Oct
I do try to make time for myself. I know it's not good to wear myself out. Although, as I tried to explain to my 11 year old student, it's easier said than done to take time off when you can't afford to! Still, I have now finished with nightmare boss, I only have about 3 hours to work next week (along with a job interview and an interview at the passport office) and then I plan on a 'date day' with my other half on Friday before taking the week after to spend time with my boys as it's school holiday.
@maezee (26783)
• United States
6 Oct
You sound very busy. I work 2, one full and one part time and between that, the gym, normal annoyingerrands and housework it feels like there is little time to just relax.
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• United Kingdom
6 Oct
I go to the gym too. I did stop doing that for a while because it was expensive and I didn't have the time to get my money's worth out of it! But it was the one thing I did for me, and my other half said I seemed happier when I was able to go so now I'll fit in a gym session while Mini is at his clubs! I've often said that I seem to have more free time when I work full time! I told someone the other day that at least a full time job means a guaranteed lunch break rather than having to try and pick at my lunch box while travelling between the part time ones! I'm sure you feel as I do when you do have time to relax and you just don't know what to do with it. It's like being away from your child/ren for the first time!
@Kandae11 (25590)
5 Oct
Seems like you have too mush to do . I would be tired too.
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• United Kingdom
5 Oct
I do have too much to do. I know I also take on too much so I've tried not to do that but it never works!
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@Corbin5 (78663)
• United States
5 Oct
I do hope no longer working for the nightmare boss does make your life less hectic. I cannot relax at all during the day, but at night, I settle down enough to enjoy what I love best, reading.
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• United Kingdom
5 Oct
Reading is a good way to relax. I like to read sometimes but I don't have the attention span to do it much!
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• Ponce De Leon, Florida
5 Oct
Just reading this makes me tired.