Do you know your place in this world?

I was sort of lost, lacking in confidence, till I qualified as a professional accountant and held responsible jobs. I was thrust to take responsibility and look ahead - siva

@theinvisibleman Oh I do like a good existential crisis. I've figured out who I am and where I'm going but I do like to take time out to swim in the existential ocean on the beaches of Algiers with Camus.

I think I've spent most of my adult life in a state of existential crisis! I've been a mum since I was 19 and while it is frowned upon to say 'just a mum', that has been my main role in life for almost 18 years (or more than 18 years if you count the time I was pregnant with my eldest). I spent a lot of years being (or, at least, feeling like) someone's mum, someone's partner, and not much else so I didn't really know 'me'. I've been discovering myself a little more in the past 3 years or so, though. I'm in the position of still being a mum but my children are slowly needing me less so it's kind of a transition period. I also spent a very long time doing the same sort of job and have since been trying to figure out what I really want to do. When people ask me to tell them about me, I never know what to say!

Life does present times like that, when one questions one's very existence. Nothing unusual nor disturbing. The human mind can imagine far and wide. A person is allowed to think, and in the process, can feel some melancholy. Meditation produces that. I suggest walking, or running. Seeing people and nature helps one assess situations. There is always something interesting to find, and that brings one back to one's own reality. Life is wonderful. Find someone to interact with. Find an activity that would preoccupy your energy.

Do we all go through such a dark night of our soul, a major self-reassessment, or self-investigative phase of our life, where we question, our existence, and all existence, meaning, purpose, and whether God really exists, in short, an existential crisis, or not? God created both day and night, and this is a symbolic representation of what we must all go through in our lives. In the beginning, all was light. Darkness arose as a contrasting aspect because creation carried it within them, as this tendency to brood, and to move away from God’s total light. This is ok, as darkness is still a form of light, but it is darkened, or seems darkened, in you, because your own light compared to God’s light is showing independently like this in you as darkness, by contrast. When you reconnect to God, you will be flooded with his light again, but the shadow of this darkness will always remain in memory for you, so that you then have a more recognisable spot, so to speak, within God more objectively so, because you have created, and gone through this dark spot, in your own life cycle process.

For me, I am still working on realizing my purpose. I still look at different angels instead of one