How Did I Get Here? Destiny?

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Have you ever looked around and asked yourself "How did I get here?" whether its a mess of a life or a good life. What decision did I make to put me in this position in life? what leap of faith did I take and remembering that one moment that was breathtaking. Yesterday reminded me how I got here and why I took that leap of faith. People. Its that simple, to get away from toxic people. I can say that I actually grew up back in 2009, Yes I was over 40 years old but that is the time that I realized I was in control and I had to take action for me, not to leave any decision up to anyone else. In 2009 I learned to keep my secrets to myself and that I could hide in plain sight. I mean right there in your face and not be seen. Learned to chose words carefully and how to act a little and put on a show (okay acting or manipulation? that is a whole other topic.) Life completely changed in 2010, all those other years was just prepping me for this life, for the most part is peaceful. I often wonder if this is destiny or if I created what I wanted life to be like. I am in control of everything but I don`t want to control everything, maybe I just think I am in control and God had written this life out for me and I am playing my part. Today I wonder why is it so important that I get the greenhouse finished? What part will this play in my future, why does it feel urgent for me to do it? So many "why`s" and not enough answers, for today, but maybe next year I will see the answer. How is your morning?