Death Came Knocking

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There is a huge difference between last year on this day, and today. Last year I was alone sitting in a place I did not know, did not know anyone and in a borrowed car I was not comfortable driving. Things happened so fast, Tony had a biopsy of his lung in late October, In a matter of a week I was rushing him to the E.R. because he could not breath, he passed out once on the way and was turning blue when I got there. He stayed a week got somewhat better and came home, a couple days later I had him back at an e.r. but not to the same hospital because the oncology team there are no good. Once again he was getting no air, within 24 hours he was on life support and was not expected to live, I stayed at the hospital and this is why Tony gave me his power of attorney. I was only to call his one sister and no one else if he got bad, this was bad so at 3 am I was calling to let her know. She drove in from Florida and we did shifts so I could drive almost an hour home to feed the dogs and the cat. On Thanksgiving day me and his sister had food the hospital made, it was food and that was it nothing special. But late that evening one of their cousins showed up with two plates of home cooked food. Every morning I was waiting for the doctor in Tony`s IUC room to see if there was any change, Dr. Yum yum told me I should go home, that wearing myself down was not helping him at all. What I did not know till 3 - 4 months later was that Tony was not expected to live, I was told people in his condition did not make it out of ICU. Death came knocking but I would not answer the door. Tony is 6 months cancer free (remission) and is back to his life of fishing and hunting. My message? Don`t answer the door if you dont want to. Have a wonderful day! I know I will.