~Breaking The Addiction~

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Jacksonville, Florida
January 3, 2018 6:35am CST
Good morning everyone. I hope you are doing well this morning. =) I woke up today, grateful for that and God is carrying me through on my quitting journey! For those who have never had an addiction-don't start! Holy wow, it's so tough to quit smoking. You do not realize the emotional attachment you have with these silly little sticks. Lol. I have been crying more than I ever have in my life! I know it sounds silly but I'm being honest. I have been a little scared every time I eat because for us our dessert is a cigarette. But even after eating I have resisted smoking. My poor husband. Gosh, I feel REALLY sorry for him. I can admit my emotions have been a roller coaster, it's crazy. He told me yesterday if you're so miserable without smoking just go smoke! =( I am not giving up but I do have to get my emotions in check. I have to remember I did this to myself by starting this habit. It has been a battle for sure. Inside my head I keep hearing my carnal mind tell me just take one drag, that's all you need to get you through. We know where that will lead, right? Not happening. Now today is the REAL challenge!! My sister and her family are coming into town for a visit. Her husband is a smoker. For those that don't know this makes my journey twice as hard!! So, for those that are children of God please pray this addiction does not get me back in its grip. And for those that have never had a strong addiction like this-be grateful! Just to understand this a little bit more though, stay home for an entire week and do not watch tv at all-not one time. Or if it's music you're attached to, don't listen to any of it for a week. Now, times that feeling by 100% and that is how I feel right now! We ALL have addictions, whether good or bad we have them... Well right now I'm going to watch Todd White and make some coffee before getting my chores done. I will be here on and off when I can, it just helps to stay really busy when kicking this habit...
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@Juliaacv (33425)
• Canada
3 Jan
Stick with it Jenn, you can do it. I quit after smoking for 25 years, and it was difficult. I found that I had to change me habits a little. After a meal our dessert was a smoke out on the back deck together, so I changed and began hand washing the dishes instead of using the dishwasher. It was a small change but it carried me past that "dessert time" and into the time following that when I wouldn't have usually been smoking. I did and still find some social interactions to be awkward, so when your family is around, you might need to get up and be more interactive with doing something while visiting, maybe holding one of the children where your mind needs to think about them and not only about lighting up. Something to ponder.......
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• Jacksonville, Florida
3 Jan
@Juliaacv It's crazy how strong this addiction is when you do not even realize it. I smoked for 15 years and for some reason when you're doing it you just don't realize the grasp it has on your life. Yesterday I was cleaning like a crazy person! Then I would listen to worship music and be uplifted again and I found strength through God. Today will be super hard but God will get me through. Maybe the thought of it being hard is tougher than it will actually be? I can hope! Lol. It's not helping that my husband hasn't been paid and we dont have enough in the house for company. I'm worried about that because when I said they could come we thought he would be done with the job by now. I'm just giving it to God and NOT stressing!!
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@Juliaacv (33425)
• Canada
3 Jan
@LovingMyBabies That's right Jenn, give it to God. Its family, and family shouldn't judge, they should understand. Stay with it, don't give into the habit again, you're almost past it physically, now you need to readjust your habits to your new lifestyle.
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• Jacksonville, Florida
3 Jan
@Juliaacv They don't understand but it's okay because God does and He has a plan. =) Thank you. Yes I do need to find something I enjoy doing instead of smoking. Do you know satan put it in my head yesterday that I dont sing as well without smoking? Wow he's almost good at his lies! i love to sing so that lie almost got me. Then I was like what? Shut up satan. Lol.
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@JohnRoberts (63342)
• Los Angeles, California
3 Jan
You have to gather all the determination to break the habit. You know all the negative aspects and that should help fuel your effort.
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• Jacksonville, Florida
3 Jan
@JohnRoberts To be honest I know this sounds bad but when you're smoking you just do not think about the health aspect at all. You kind of pretend it doesn't exist I guess, makes it easier to keep smoking if you dont think about the health factors... However, God started me on this quitting journey and I know He will help me finish it too. =)
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@JohnRoberts (63342)
• Los Angeles, California
3 Jan
@LovingMyBabies I am rather shocked that you smoke. You don't seem the type if there is such a thing as type.
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• Jacksonville, Florida
3 Jan
@JohnRoberts Well, I don't smoke-not anymore anyway. But yes I did for 15 years. I don't think there is a "type" but I started when I was given a cig after a break up at 18 years old. The person told me it would make me feel better. At the time they were right-now...not so much. Lol.
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@Courtlynn (55260)
• United States
3 Jan
I hope your brother in law goes for a walk or something when he wants to smoke. Though, I'm sure he'll smell like it too which probably wont help either
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• Jacksonville, Florida
3 Jan
@Courtlynn To be honest, today I think I will be fine with it. I'm feeling stronger with it than I did the last couple of days. =)
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@Courtlynn (55260)
• United States
3 Jan
@LovingMyBabies I'm glad.
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• Jacksonville, Florida
3 Jan
@Courtlynn Thank you! =)
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@Corbin5 (116635)
• United States
3 Jan
You can quit, my friend. My husband did 30 years ago, and I he made it through. He quit when we had our son.
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• Jacksonville, Florida
3 Jan
@Corbin5 Thank you. God didn't give me a choice, Lol. He said stop and I did.
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@Corbin5 (116635)
• United States
3 Jan
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@LilyBeBack (2016)
• United Kingdom
3 Jan
Well done!! I believe you'll be successful I never imagined you to be a smoker, I think non-smoker status suits you much better I've been smoking for 15 years as well, since I was 13, and the only time I've ever properly stopped was when I was pregnant. Now I only smoke when Leonard's asleep or out with family, so I never have more than three cigs on the average day, and recently I've been thinking seriously about quitting. My main issue at the minute though is my weight, so I'm going to tackle that first
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• Jacksonville, Florida
3 Jan
@LilyBeBack Thank you! God said no more and that was that. God didn't like my bargains. Not many people know or think I would be a smoker-we all have our addictions though-even if we don't announce them. Unfortunately, I couldn't even quit when I was pregnant with any of my children. I really never ever thought I would quit but God said you're finished with that. That's what I was smoking, 3-4 cigs per day. I recommend watching Todd White when you have time. Good luck with all you are working on!!
• United Kingdom
4 Jan
@LilyBeBack You've been smoking as long as I've known you. Smoking hot!
@louievill (19726)
• Philippines
3 Jan
It's one hard addiction to break, even if you fully quit for a long time, one stick or even a puff would bring it back and when it does it comes back with a vengeance you can almost hear the devil himself mocking you.
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• Jacksonville, Florida
3 Jan
@louievill Yes it is! I know, that's why I keep telling my carnal mind and satan to shut up. Then I go listen to worship music and praise God!
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@louievill (19726)
• Philippines
3 Jan
@LovingMyBabies you will always be in my prayers till you overcome it, in Jesus name.
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• Jacksonville, Florida
3 Jan
@louievill Thank you so very much!!
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• Ponce De Leon, Florida
3 Jan
I'm one of the lucky ones that can smoke or not smoke. There are times I'll smoke a couple packs a week and then I'll go a year without smoking.
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• Jacksonville, Florida
3 Jan
@thislittlepennyearns I used to be like that but after so many years, it got me. 15 years is a long time to have any habit! Lol.
• Ponce De Leon, Florida
3 Jan
@LovingMyBabies I havent smoked for that long. Lol more or less the last five years. But I don't smoke much unless I'm really stressed or drinking.
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• Jacksonville, Florida
3 Jan
@thislittlepennyearns If you can avoid it, don't make it an every day thing. Quitting is tough once you are addicted!
@Spontaneo (1662)
• United States
18 Jan
I completely understand what you are going through. Would you keep me posted?
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• Jacksonville, Florida
18 Jan
@Spontaneo The first couple of days it was tough but nowhere near as tough as it would have been without God's help! I am smoke free for more than 2 weeks now!! I no longer crave them and I haven't even thought about it unless someone mentions something about it. God is SO amazing!! He has made my addiction a thing of the past!
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@Spontaneo (1662)
• United States
18 Jan
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@Happy2BeMe (74936)
• Canada
3 Jan
You got this Jen. Keeping praying. God will get you through this just like he has gotten you through so many other tough times. I will be praying for you but I believe in you and I know you can do this!! Stay strong!!
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• Jacksonville, Florida
3 Jan
@Happy2beme Thank you very much. =) You're right! God has gotten me through worse. Thank you for reminding me of that! Thank you for praying and the encouragement as well.
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@Happy2BeMe (74936)
• Canada
3 Jan
@LovingMyBabies It will get easier as time goes on!
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@JESSY3236 (7327)
• United States
3 Jan
My mother tried to quit smoking once. Now she is going to quit too. She is now using a vapor.
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• Jacksonville, Florida
3 Jan
@JESSY3236 I wish your mom the best of luck with quitting! =)
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@sjvg1976 (18404)
• Delhi, India
3 Jan
It's not easy to quit. I have been trying it but not been successful yet. I know it's harmful but who cares when one has a strong addiction. You need to have strong will power which I lag. I hope one day I will quit it.
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• Jacksonville, Florida
3 Jan
@sjvg1976 I promise you, it was not a decision I made for myself. God literally said-no more. That was that. I never ever thought I would quit until I got a cancer diagnosis but God had different plans for me. When it's the right time-you too will quit.
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@BelleStarr (39710)
• United States
3 Jan
I quit in 1993 after 20 years of smoking and I have never regretted it for a minute, stay strong and tell your brother in law to please smoke away from where you are. My hardest time was my first one in the morning with a cup of coffee.
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@NJChicaa (46367)
• United States
3 Jan
Stick with it! Who wants to smell like a nasty ashtray?
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• Jacksonville, Florida
3 Jan
@NJChicaa Oh I am.
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@ilocosboy (37514)
• Philippines
3 Jan
Its always hard, just like any story there's always a hard conflict, but that makes the ending of the story remarkable and good.
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• Jacksonville, Florida
3 Jan
@ilocosboy You're absolutely right! Nothing worth fighting for is easy. =) Thank you!
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@LeaPea2417 (22098)
• Toccoa, Georgia
3 Jan
I am praying for you to not give up. You can kick the habit. And when you get tempted to take just one drag, look at this video over and over,,,
If you don't know who Yul Brynner is.... Look up the SciFi Cult classic "Westworld" or such GREAT Musicals as "The King and I", He died from Lung Cancer in 1985
• Jacksonville, Florida
3 Jan
@Leapea2417 It has never been a health thing for me. God told me to quit, now. I did not want to quit-I enjoyed smoking. I tried making a deal with God so I could keep smoking-He said NO. I tried. Lol. God has been helping me through this process.
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@Gillygirl (17436)
• Sutton, England
6 Jan
I hope you made it through without one of those sticks Jennifer. It will be so worth it. If I hadn't smoked for so many years I wouldn't have got emphysema. If you can stick to being a non smoker the chances are your children won't smoke. Praying for you.
@sugartoes (42769)
• Greencastle, Indiana
4 Jan
I know how hard it is to stop a bad habit like that as I tried a LONG time ago & O M G it was crazy I went from smoking to eating everything in the HOUSE. But here's the strange part about this whole thing while I was pg I couldn't stand the smell or the taste of a cigg for 9 mos & put them down with no problem. So I know if your are serious you can do this & with gods help you can put this behind you in NO time.
@mayka123 (10836)
• India
4 Jan
Will pray that you keep yourself away from those little sticks, Luckily I have no addictions. When I go out on vacations I keep myself away from the television, mobile etc and do not miss it at all.
@celticeagle (119880)
• Boise, Idaho
4 Jan
It is a very worthwhile challenge. I am so proud of you. Keep busy. Best of luck getting through this.
@snowy22315 (52986)
• United States
4 Jan
You can do it!!