Emotional Struggles
By inertia4
@inertia4 (27961)
United States
January 16, 2018 10:50am CST
Hey Now!!! Yeah, it’s me. I decided to write another post. I need to. I want to be more active here. I know I have been missing in action as well. I have had some set backs emotionally the last month. For starters, my girlfriend went to stay with her sister for the entire month of December. Well, a little longer. See, her father was transferred from a nursing home here in Brooklyn to Long Island where her sister lives. He stayed with her sister for nine days. He just couldn’t do things on his own. So they put him into a rehab for physical therapy. So my girlfriend was with her sister from just before Thanks Giving to just before New Years eve. She is home now.
But in the interim, there was something that happened. Well, something I saw and read. Pertaining to my girlfriend. I wasn’t happy about what I read and my heart sank. Now I am not saying she did anything. But it hurt and still does. She has shown no signed of any wrong doing. Which is good. But I have been watching closely. So since then and before, I haven’t really been here because of the holiday preparations and just tired fo being online I guess. But that put a big damper on me. And what worries me now is that she is going to go back to her sisters for like another week. I offered to go with her this time and she quickly said no, don’t come. That took be aback.
I don’t want to dwell on this issue for too long. But I have to deal with it my own way. In the meantime I have been stressed out and anxious. Which is not real good for my health. She also has been going through some health issues of her own. And the fact that she lost her mother back in May of last year. That all took a toll on her. So, for her health, I am worried about her. I am the type of person that is considered a worrier. I cannot help that, it is my nature.
Okay, now to see if I can get back into the groove of coming online daily like I used to and working MyLot like I used to. I will do my best and put forth the effort needed. And, by the way, how is everyone of my friends here on MyLot? I hope everything is fine and going well for everyone. And I hope that 2018 is a great year for all my MyLot friends.
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@Marilynda1225 (79592)
• United States
16 Jan 18
Sorry to hear that you are going through so many personal struggles. Happy to see you back and hopefully everything will turn out okay.
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@shaggin (71659)
• United States
16 Jan 18
I was wondering what was going on with you and your girlfriend but figured if you wanted to tell us you would have and now you are. It's good to trusting but also at times to be leery and question things. I hope things work out good for you and your girlfriend. Losing her mother had to take a toll on her as well as what is going on with her father. I wish you were back here on better circumstances but I am truly happy to hear you will be around more. Mylot has helped save my sanity so many times over the years being able to come here and write and know it won't get around as gossip in my town.
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@shaggin (71659)
• United States
17 Jan 18
@inertia4 I can't get private messages here easily but if you ever need someone to chat with like about the things you can't go into detail on here you can email me. I check my email very often. I'll private message you tomorrow when I get on my tablet and tell you my email address.
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@inertia4 (27961)
• United States
17 Jan 18
Thank you very much. I know, I missed everyone here in MyLot. I am dealing with things with my girlfriend. It does go deeper than what I wrote. But that is not something for the public to know. Last year was not such a great year. I am hoping 2018 will be much better for me and my girlfriend and everyone else I know.
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@much2say (53946)
• Los Angeles, California
13 Feb 18
Oh gosh, I had missed your post here last month! I hope things have worked out for the better since that time. I have always found that coming here and sharing our emotions (even if it's not the entire story) does help a bit . . . situations may be different, but we find that we are often not alone in what we feel. Last month was a huge funk for me (I didn't write about it) - it's not the way I had expected the new year to start off. But that's what it was . . . and all we can do is move forward from there. Glad you are back and I do hope to see you around more often. I will say being here has always been good therapy 
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@inertia4 (27961)
• United States
22 Feb 18
@much2say Well, it is not pretty. Let me tell you that. But she likes to deny things and always claims that she told me after she gets caught in a lie. That to me is funny and very sad at the same time. Look, I had a bad marriage, I don't need a bad relationship at this point in my life.
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@inertia4 (27961)
• United States
15 Feb 18
Yes, it is personal. But I am dealing with things. I did have a talk with her tonight. She seemed to get a bit annoyed with me talking about it. But she started to talk a bit. But her answers were somewhat short. Which leaves me to believe that something did happen. Still. Even though she denies it with all she has. But we did wind up having a great time tonight. Dinner was amazing. Now she is falling asleep in bed and I am wound up.
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@garymarsh6 (23393)
• United Kingdom
14 Feb 18
OH dear you are going through the wars at the moment. Multiple problems it has not been a kind year to your girlfriend losing her mother, her father being ill. Take a few deep breaths and try not to get too wound up about things. I do hope you find some peace and find the way to deal with any problems. Try not to rush things and take each day as it comes. Do not dwell too much on bad things and try and keep yourself occupied. Good luck I wish you all the best!
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@inertia4 (27961)
• United States
1 Mar 18
Thank you for that. But I am dealing with her for a few other reasons as well. Not just her parents. That I totally understand and I did tell her I am here for her. But she just don't seem to let me in. So I am taking it one day at a time. Wether things work out or not, I know I will survive.
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@inertia4 (27961)
• United States
2 Mar 18
@garymarsh6 I am being strong. I think I am just distancing myself little by little right now. I think that is the best way to go.
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@popciclecold (35067)
• United States
17 Jun 18
Well, it's good to have you back with us, maybe being here can help take some of the stress in your life.
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@toniganzon (72285)
• Philippines
18 Jan 18
I am glad to see you back here again and for sharing something personal.
I hope you get to deal with whatever you are going through successfully and hope to see you bounce back in mylot.
I do the same some times. When I'm having some emotional struggles, I can't see myself doing anything I love doing. That includes being in mylot.
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@bagarad (14283)
• Paso Robles, California
11 Feb 18
Sounds like your girlfriend has a lot on her plate right now. Caregiving and parents with health issues take a lot out of a person. I had to move in with my mother for two months when she was very ill and could not care for herself. She needed me. My husband was very patient. Fortunately Mom only lived ten minutes from us so Hubby could come visit whenever he could work it in. But the caregiving is very stressful and takes a lot out of one emotionally and physically to the point where sometimes you have little to give anyone else. My husband was very supportive and understanding. And that meant a lot. It must be very hard for your girlfriend to be caregiving at the same time she is still grieving. She simply may be dealing with so much she has nothing left to give until she is able to freely grieve and she begins to heal.
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@inertia4 (27961)
• United States
11 Feb 18
It is a long time now. Her mother passed over 8 months ago. Her father is in a nursing home out by her sister. So she goes to her sisters one week a month to see him. I told her that I can take her to see him at least twice a week. She might do that instead. But now her brother is looking to take him and if that happens, my girlfriend could see her father everyday. Which would be better for her. That might help her be able to move forward sooner. And she has another incentive as well, her brother and his wife just had a baby. So she is in love with that baby. Hopefully that could snap her back to reality.
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@Letranknight2015 (51498)
• Philippines
17 Jan 18
Wish we could be much of help to you. But if this is a relationship problem, it's deep and personal. I hope you would still be here no matter what.
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@Poppylicious (11133)
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16 Jan 18
Perhaps you need to ask her about what's niggling you, rather than let it eat you up from the inside.
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@inertia4 (27961)
• United States
17 Jan 18
I did talk to her about it. But she said nothing is wrong and nothing strange is going on. But then she sort of not wanted to talk about it anymore. So I wait. I watch and I listen. And I monitor. That's all I can do. Look, I am the kind of person that needs to know. Period. Then I can form an opinion or a decision.
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@Gita17112016 (3611)
• Trinidad And Tobago
23 Jan 18
Didn't quite catch was exactly was the problem or the issue that had you so distressed. But happy you are back together and you seem to have recover your zeal foe being online. Good wishes to you.
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@inertia4 (27961)
• United States
27 Jan 18
@Gita17112016 I do as well. More than anything. But who knows. I just have a gut feeling something is going on. And that's not good. Because all of my gut feelings always come true.
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@Gita17112016 (3611)
• Trinidad And Tobago
27 Jan 18
@inertia4 Off course. Innocent until proven otherwise. Hope things work out.
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