Again, I just can't sleep.....

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So tonight is a very rare night for me. I'm actually in bed before 2 am but as of now, 3am, I still can't sleep. I'm not sure of the exact cause but I do have a few ideas. Yesterday, I got a 15 minute notice that my mom was coming out for a visit. This came after me and my sister planned our days so we had to change some stuff around. Visit was okay. In the beginning, she was bugging my daughter for her cellphone number and I told her she couldn't have it. That led to an argument causing my mom to act like a child and say that if I don't give her my daughter's number that she's just going to leave then. My daughter does not want her to have her phone number as she hardly ever comes around and she doesn't want her to make promises that she wont keep. About a half an hour later, things were better and I ended up buying dinner for everyone. Seems like that's all I'm ever good for these days. Once we came home, things were really good. Got my grocery list done and found out that Karen would like to go shopping with me. Another reason I think I can't sleep right now is my sister. She was super high today and even our mom noticed. Then around midnight my sister text me to thank me for being there for her and that she hopes I feel the same. That she's there for me as much as I am for her. Um last I checked, she never made me dinner when I was feeling down, cleaned my house, loaned me money, took my kids so I could have some "me" time. She's never done any of those things. And, for our town's committee, she's in charge of the kid games and has NO ideas. I have like 10 really good ones and I've already bought some prizes for the kiddie fun days along with the game I'm going to be hosting at labor days. I have this feeling that she's about to ask me for money again. She's always "super thankful" right before she asks for money and I know if I say no, she'll go to our stepdad. However, I already told him that she's back to smoking pot so he won't lend her any money now. Well, it's 3:40 now so I'm going to try to get to sleep. I have to be up and out the door by 7:15 to take kids to school then go grocery shopping to get it done and out of the way. then later, I have to work a few hours then I have a town committee meeting where I have to stand up and talk in front of a bunch of people, which I HATE! But they all like my ideas so I guess it's a good thing lol. I hope everyone is doing well!!