Life with Dialysis.
By Bhem
@JustBhem (70555)
Davao, Philippines
March 13, 2018 1:30pm CST
Here is my first catheter in the neck.
I remember some people have mistaken it as a goiter and I didn't care about it.
It took me months and years before I accepted the life I have with Dialysis.
Crying in the dark has been the only thing that makes sense to me.
People are very offensive when looking at me as if I have the deadliest sickness of all time. They didn't even know that inside me wants to burn them alive.
And I heard what the Priest who conducted a blessing to me that acceptance is the only thing that will make me stand in this turbulent kind of life I will have. That I should ask forgiveness in that way I can easily take this burden.
I think Life has something in store for me for having a second life with Dialysis.
The Picture is mine.
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31 responses
@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
13 Mar 18
Lean on God because He doesn't cause the bad things in life. The enemy is the one who comes to kill, steal and destroy.
I'm sorry for the pain you must go through every day, you are incredibly strong though. =( 
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@AKRao24 (27424)
• India
13 Mar 18
I think she may not require to go to dialysis daily @LovingMyBabies ! Thanks!
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@JustBhem (70555)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar 18
Thank you @LovingMyBabies for the kind words. 
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@LovingMyBabies (85127)
• Valdosta, Georgia
14 Mar 18
@JustBhem You're very welcome.
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@spiderdust (14741)
• San Jose, California
14 Mar 18
I have a friend who lost a kidney to cancer and his other kidney is starting to fail, so he has to go in for dialysis once a week. He and his doctor are considering having a port installed in his abdomen so he can have an in-home dialysis machine and do his dialysis at home. No more needles!
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@spiderdust (14741)
• San Jose, California
14 Mar 18
@JustBhem That might be right. I'll have to ask him when I visit him, he just had surgery yesterday.
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@anikoonline (3250)
• Hungary
13 Mar 18
Is there an opportunity for you to get new kidneys?
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@JustBhem (70555)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar 18
@anikoonline
Yes. I still believe a miracle will come to me.
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@anikoonline (3250)
• Hungary
14 Mar 18
@JustBhem I hope that one day you can get!
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@allen0187 (58444)
• Philippines
14 Mar 18
Make the most of this second chance Bhem!
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@sabtraversa (12937)
• Italy
13 Mar 18
It's hard to think people staring at you aren't mean, especially when we're insecure about ourselves. That's why it's important to accept oneself, because you simply realize the stares were just curious, worried or maybe ignorant, and they're easier to forgive if you know there's no intentional cruelty.
If you believe you look bad, you will also believe others look at you thinking you're bad. 
I've been through that, and I bet most people have.
Challenges simply make you stronger, and allow you to inspire and motivate others to grow with you.
It's hard, and I know I can't even imagine how hard it is for you, but you're still here and keep on striving. There's still a lot you can do and give to this world, such as the VA course, for example.
I'm very proud of you for being an amazing fighter in life.
I've been through that, and I bet most people have.
Challenges simply make you stronger, and allow you to inspire and motivate others to grow with you.
It's hard, and I know I can't even imagine how hard it is for you, but you're still here and keep on striving. There's still a lot you can do and give to this world, such as the VA course, for example.
I'm very proud of you for being an amazing fighter in life. 3 people like this
@hereandthere (45651)
• Philippines
14 Mar 18
so young and so wise. have you ever been told (or felt like) you're an old soul?
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@Juliaacv (48429)
• Canada
14 Mar 18
There are some health issues that we have no control over, as you know.
And when I come across someone, like yourself, who has an issue like that, and I see how well they seem to be handling it, like you are, and I have a lot of admiration for you.
Staring or weird looks must be difficult, but you have to remember that there are a lot of really ignorant people in this world. They may not even realize how hurtful their staring is.
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@ridingbet (66857)
• Philippines
14 Mar 18
so, you had the intrajugular catheter.
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@ridingbet (66857)
• Philippines
16 Mar 18
@JustBhem when the catheter was pulled out, was a local anesthesia injected, or was it pulled out without anesthesia?
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@JustBhem (70555)
• Davao, Philippines
16 Mar 18
@ridingbet
It was taken off without anesthesia and I even forgot to take pictures of it when the Doctor said for a souvenir.
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@Lignitecityabishek96 (7110)
• Cuddalore, India
13 Mar 18
You should not give up your hope .
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@AKRao24 (27424)
• India
13 Mar 18
I can understand your problem...how long you have been on dialysis? I can understand how frustrating people with kidney problems can be! but I am sure with regular dialysis and controlled you can have a good life by the grace of God! All the best and all my prayers to the Almighty to make you well soon dear friend @JustBhem !
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@LeaPea2417 (36442)
• Toccoa, Georgia
14 Mar 18
I think you are beautiful and I really mean it. I sympathize with all people who have scars where ever the scars may be on their bodies. The reason I empathize is because I have 3 visible scars on my left leg due to being hit by a car at age 12. I have lived with these scars for 41 years. When I was in my teens & early 20s, I was self conscious of the scars and felt like everyone was laughing at me when I wore a bathing suit or shorts. Then, my husband dared me to buy shorts and wear them in public. He said, I look fine. So, I did. It was scary at first, but honestly I don't think too many people noticed and if they did, so be it. Today, I can honestly say I love my scars because they are a constant reminder that God saved my life and leg those many years ago. If it wasn't for God aligning me with the right Doctors and medicine, I would not have lived into adulthood and my 2 sons would have not been born.
So, I empathize with you. The photo above is perfect.
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@mlgen1037 (29886)
• Manila, Philippines
14 Mar 18
You are strong and resilient. Just have faith and believe. I know you will make it thru. Thank you for the encouragement you gave me in my discussions. I wish to give you the same.
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@mlgen1037 (29886)
• Manila, Philippines
14 Mar 18
@JustBhem I am just here to be a friend. I will just be here.
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