Life with Dialysis.

@JustBhem (44512)
Davao, Philippines
March 13, 2018 1:30pm CST
Here is my first catheter in the neck. I remember some people have mistaken it as a goiter and I didn't care about it. It took me months and years before I accepted the life I have with Dialysis. Crying in the dark has been the only thing that makes sense to me. People are very offensive when looking at me as if I have the deadliest sickness of all time. They didn't even know that inside me wants to burn them alive. And I heard what the Priest who conducted a blessing to me that acceptance is the only thing that will make me stand in this turbulent kind of life I will have. That I should ask forgiveness in that way I can easily take this burden. I think Life has something in store for me for having a second life with Dialysis. The Picture is mine.
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@Icydoll (26281)
• India
13 Mar
May God be with you cha ..he is the only strength to you.always stay blessed
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
Yes, he is and I will hold on to that. Thanks.
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@Corbin5 (119782)
• United States
13 Mar
Dialysis has given you a chance at a second life, and you really do sound grateful. I know you will handle this well if you keep that positive attitude.
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
I need to be positive and thank you for your kinds words @Corbin5.
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@Corbin5 (119782)
• United States
14 Mar
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@TheSojourner (17298)
• United States
13 Mar
You are beautiful, Bhem. This picture shows a serene you. Hugs and much love to you.
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
Thanks, @CoralLevang I also admire you.
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• United States
14 Mar
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@JudyEv (137503)
• Bunbury, Australia
13 Mar
I think you do wonderfully well to stay so positive given your condition.
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
I need to because I am the only one can understand and will love myself through.
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@anikoonline (3258)
• Hungary
13 Mar
Is there an opportunity for you to get new kidneys?
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
There is but I need a huge amount of money to have a kidney transplant and a donor who is willing to donate their kidney.
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• Hungary
14 Mar
@JustBhem I hope that one day you can get!
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
@anikoonline Yes. I still believe a miracle will come to me.
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• Cuddalore, India
13 Mar
You will be fine soon.
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
Thanks.
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@kanchan10 (3573)
• Kolkata, India
13 Mar
all i can say is that keep smiling dear. in these trying time god be with u.
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
13 Mar
Yes, God is my refuge and my savior.
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@spiderdust (7535)
• San Jose, California
14 Mar
I have a friend who lost a kidney to cancer and his other kidney is starting to fail, so he has to go in for dialysis once a week. He and his doctor are considering having a port installed in his abdomen so he can have an in-home dialysis machine and do his dialysis at home. No more needles!
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
Needles are the worst I can tell. It's painful. I think what you mean is Peritoneal Dialysis where you can do that every 4 hours in a day.
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• San Jose, California
14 Mar
@JustBhem That might be right. I'll have to ask him when I visit him, he just had surgery yesterday.
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
@spiderdust Surgery for what?
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@TheSojourner (17298)
• United States
14 Mar
I just saw this on FB. Not sure of how long it's been out or all that, but thought I would share.
Scientists in the USA have now developed the world’s first bionic kidney that is all set to end dialysis in two years.
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
I read this one on Facebook. It will be available after 2 years. I hope that is the answer for us, for all people who are on Dialysis.
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• United States
14 Mar
@JustBhem fact that it's being developed is a great thing. I hope that it is able to help people like you sooner than later
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
@CoralLevang Patients in the center where I have my Dialysis discussing this and we are looking forward to this.
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@amadeo (76063)
• United States
13 Mar
Life has something for all of us there.I love your positive thinking there.
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
Thanks, Buddy. You too, we are all strong soul though we fight differently.
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@amadeo (76063)
• United States
14 Mar
@JustBhem yes we have to.In order to survive.
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
@amadeo Of course, we need to Buddy.
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• Jacksonville, Florida
13 Mar
Lean on God because He doesn't cause the bad things in life. The enemy is the one who comes to kill, steal and destroy. I'm sorry for the pain you must go through every day, you are incredibly strong though. =(
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@AKRao24 (21433)
• India
13 Mar
I think she may not require to go to dialysis daily @LovingMyBabies ! Thanks!
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
Thank you @LovingMyBabies for the kind words.
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• Jacksonville, Florida
14 Mar
@JustBhem You're very welcome.
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@sabtraversa (13331)
• Italy
13 Mar
It's hard to think people staring at you aren't mean, especially when we're insecure about ourselves. That's why it's important to accept oneself, because you simply realize the stares were just curious, worried or maybe ignorant, and they're easier to forgive if you know there's no intentional cruelty. If you believe you look bad, you will also believe others look at you thinking you're bad. I've been through that, and I bet most people have. Challenges simply make you stronger, and allow you to inspire and motivate others to grow with you. It's hard, and I know I can't even imagine how hard it is for you, but you're still here and keep on striving. There's still a lot you can do and give to this world, such as the VA course, for example. I'm very proud of you for being an amazing fighter in life.
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• Philippines
14 Mar
so young and so wise. have you ever been told (or felt like) you're an old soul?
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
Thank you @sabtraversa, you never ran out of good words for me. I really appreciate it.
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@Antman18 (78)
13 Mar
I understand the pain you go through in your life.i hope in future you will get soon by getting permanent solution
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• Cuddalore, India
13 Mar
You should not give up your hope .
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
A new kidney or a miracle that will revive my kidney. Yeah, I still believe that.
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@allen0187 (34149)
• Philippines
14 Mar
Make the most of this second chance Bhem!
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
Yes, @allen0187. Thanks.
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@DianneN (88228)
• United States
13 Mar
Your positive attitude speaks volumes. Bless you!
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
Thanks, Miss D. Bless you too.
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@Hannihar (44393)
14 Mar
Your life is very hard and I am sorry what you are going through.
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
Yes, and I'm sorry for myself too it happens.
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@Hannihar (44393)
15 Mar
@JustBhem I understand Bhem. It is very hard for you.
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
15 Mar
@Hannihar Thanks for understanding.
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@Juliaacv (34207)
• Canada
14 Mar
There are some health issues that we have no control over, as you know. And when I come across someone, like yourself, who has an issue like that, and I see how well they seem to be handling it, like you are, and I have a lot of admiration for you. Staring or weird looks must be difficult, but you have to remember that there are a lot of really ignorant people in this world. They may not even realize how hurtful their staring is.
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
And I'm still getting them whenever I walk out of the house. And I don't care anymore. Because I know that they won't make me better. Thanks.
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@Juliaacv (34207)
• Canada
14 Mar
@JustBhem Let your beauty and acceptance radiate, it will stop the stares from the ignorant people in this world.
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
@Juliaacv Thanks, I like this one. And I will do this.
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@ridingbet (60769)
• Philippines
14 Mar
so, you had the intrajugular catheter.
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
Yes, the first one I have when I was new to the treatment. It was the year of 2014.
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@ridingbet (60769)
• Philippines
16 Mar
@JustBhem when the catheter was pulled out, was a local anesthesia injected, or was it pulled out without anesthesia?
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
16 Mar
@ridingbet It was taken off without anesthesia and I even forgot to take pictures of it when the Doctor said for a souvenir.
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@mlgen1037 (29623)
• Manila, Philippines
14 Mar
You are strong and resilient. Just have faith and believe. I know you will make it thru. Thank you for the encouragement you gave me in my discussions. I wish to give you the same.
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
Thank you too. We are here because we want to have someone to tap us in the back when no one else wants to listen.
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@mlgen1037 (29623)
• Manila, Philippines
14 Mar
@JustBhem I am just here to be a friend. I will just be here.
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
Thank you @mlgen1037.
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• Philippines
14 Mar
is that a recent pic?
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
Nope, it was taken last 2014.
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• Philippines
14 Mar
@JustBhem i think some might not be able to survive for 3yrs of dialysis but you are so that means you are coping so far
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@JustBhem (44512)
• Davao, Philippines
14 Mar
@Strawberry18 Yes, because of acceptance. I accepted the life I will have with Dialysis.
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