Life Changes So Fast

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You never fully appreciate something until you no longer have it. This goes for basic things such as the ability to walk and go to the bathroom. Since I've broken my ankle, even hobbling up and down the hall from my bedroom to the bathroom has become an obstacle. I hurt all over and loathe getting up to use the toilet. But this is my reality now, for the time being anyway, so I have no choice but to deal with it. I haven't had a proper shower in almost a week. I have been making do with sponge baths and wiping myself down with baby wipes. It doesn't replace a real shower, though. Not in the slightest. I shudder to think what people smelled like in the old days when bathing wasn't a regular activity they engaged in. My hair feels nasty and desperately needs washing. My partner says he will try to wash it in the kitchen sink later. My sister did wash it for me in the sink on Thursday, but that was a few days ago already. I am not used to going so long without washing my hair or bathing. I dread Monday morning and having to use the stairs to get to my appointment with the orthopedist. My partner took the day off from work so he can help me. I hope it's not raining that day and that I'm able to get down and then back up without any serious issues. The last thing I need is another broken bone! It's just crazy how fast things can change. In the blink of the eye I lost my mobility and independence, even if it is temporary. Thank the stars my injury wasn't worse. I could have hit my head or broken my neck. From now on I will have to be very, VERY careful when going up and down the stairs to our apartment. In spite of everything, I have somehow kept my sense of humor. I do have moments where I start feeling depressed or sorry for myself, usually when I am tired and feel like I can't push myself any further. Who would have ever thought that the simple act of getting up to go pee would become a challenge? Life can change so fast. I didn't appreciate having the ability to walk around until I found myself stuck in bed needing to rely on others to help me with everything. I know this will pass, and I can't wait for it to do so. But for now, it really, really sucks. Image is mine, and is of my ankle as it appeared on Tuesday while I was waiting in the ER for my X-ray results. It swelled up even bigger than that before they wrapped it in a splint, believe it or not.