Life in the woods and dealing with change

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It's hard adjusting to change. Especially when a person lives in the woods. It's been nearly 6 months since the fire. I still can't believe my house burned down taking all my worldly belongings in its wake. My car was sawed up to haul to recycling on Monday. It was a Subaru station wagon, which I loved dearly. I'm looking for another one without much luck. I was able to haul tons of stuff in it! It also was really comfortable to drive! I could make a 700 mile trip in one day and not have my back ache like it does with a lot of cars. I'm living with my boyfriend now. He's thrilled to have me with him. He didn't have the courage to ask me to live with him for fear I'd say "No". The fire did the job for him. He loves " taking care of me". Even if I get the money to rebuild, I don't think I'll be able to move out. His daughter is happy that I'm living with him and taking care of him. So it works out well. The only thing I miss is being surrounded by fur babies. Bill isn't big on a lot of animals in the house. Maybe he'll change his mind about that. It's still raining. It's great as it's filling up the lake, but we cross a creek to get to town and yesterday it was running over two feet deep. When it's that deep and running you don't try to cross--if you have a brain in your head. People have tried and been washed down stream. We even had one fatality, which for the amount of time the crossing has been there is pretty good. It could have been much worse over the course of over sixty years. Anyhow the rain always puts me in the mood to sew, so I'm working on teddy bears. I'm going to need to cut more out soon. I need to do some 18 inch bears, I've been doing six inch bears. I have to hand sew the smaller bears, the 18 inch ones can be sewn on the sewing machine. I want to make a couple larger bears so I can dress them. I love planning the outfits for the bigger bears. Maybe that's what I need to do to brighten my frame of mind. Speaking of frame of mind, mine has been in the toilet the past couple weeks. I can totally understand why....I don't adjust to change well. And I have to admit there has been a LOT of change in my life. I suppose it would help to talk to someone about it. But living 30 miles from town its a bit of a pain in the fanny to make a special trip to see someone to talk to. Oh well, once I get really deep into making the bears my frame of mind should brighten. I can't be down for too long, it isn't my way of handling things. I guess I should get in gear and work on the bears I have cut out and waiting. I want to take them into the shop next week. Maybe that will brighten my mood.