Walking away ..
April 15, 2018 8:27am CST
. April 10, 2018 ... This is the day that I decided to walk away .. April 10, 2018 ... It is a Tuesday .. This is the day that I released myself from that prison with invisible walls. It feels like a sharp knife as long and as wide as me has been pulled out from the top of my head.. Amazing how I survived it all for 50 something years.. I found out that April 10 is National Siblings Day.. I didn't know that there is a "National Siblings Day".. What a coincidence that I found this out at the very date that I decided to cut myself out from all my siblings and their families for no other reason than I deeply feel the need to take very good care of my well being .. and because I want to live the remaining short years of my life without the memories of the miserable past.. While most will be celebrating this day with their siblings, I will celebrate it as the day of my total freedom.. I will celebrate this day as though it's my birthday.. But to those who have siblings to celebrate with, be very grateful that you have siblings to share life experiences with. You are so blessed.. .. Love, respect and treasure one another ... ”To forgive is to set a prisoner free and to discover that the prisoner is you.” ~Lewis B. Smedes~ Bess.. .
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• Baguio, Philippines
Yes very well said ma'am, I am very grateful for having siblings. I'm not aware that there is a national siblings day. But I would love to make every day as national siblings day with my sisters and brothers. God bless you ma'am !
It may not have been easy I am sure. But I am glad that you thought of yourself. Unless we are happy, we can't make another person happy. That is the fundamental rule. If another person makes us miserable, we have to the right for defense. There will be many moments of "did I do right", "won't they think I am selfish", "if only xyz was with me", "will we be together - ever". There will also be moments, where you will feel I wish I had not left. But to be honest, mind makes pain diminutive over a period, so it may feel like that. If the pain is there, it will resurface. So yes, you took the right step, but be brave and accept responsibility for your actions. All the best. Love...hugs..tc
Thank you so much for your caring comment .. Yes, I have asked myself those questions hundreds of times before for many years .. But in the end, I have to make my remaining years comfortable for me .. this decision is hundred times more difficult than divorcing a husband of ten years .. but yes, I am responsible for my own actions ..
I never knew that that date has anything to do with Sibling stuff, until reading some posts here on Mylot. My siblings are a funny lot, they cared for me in a sense, some were not nice to me in certain years, but in the end, they are people who know me a bit more than others (and I them). I avoid some (mutual) but they are my siblings regardless. Siblings = a funny thing .
• United States
Our mental health should be a top priority, and if siblings were interfering with your mental health, then a goodbye to siblings it should be. Love my sister. Love my brother too, but since he has not asked how our elderly dad is, nor did he ask how our mother was doing in the past, I have no use for him.
• United States
It is good to have a date to mark your freedom, to look back on as a real milestone. Throughout my family things are mixed, but not toxic. I have cousins and uncles I do not hear from. They were toxic. None of us need to live with that.