Emotional, yet normal
May 14, 2018 1:12pm CST
It's no surprise that yesterday was a tough day for me. And even for my mom. As my daughter is still not in our lives, and my grandmother moved out of state a few months ago - which made this the first year my mom couldn't see her mom for mother's day. But for me, it was a surprise that I made it through the day on my own. As my mom had to work, my brother wasn't home, and my boyfriend was here, but went back to sleep after we ate breakfast until he had to get ready to go home. So.. I had thoughts. Many actually. But I did dishes and laundry, and watched a movie once the boyfriend left.. and just tried to relax. Then once the movie was over I was getting ready to go to Dollar Tree, and the doorbell rang. It was my friend. She came by to give my mom some roses, and me a lotion and perfume. It was a nice little surprise, and made me happy she thought of me after the way she's been the last two years. But then when she was going out the door, I saw my niece out in the field with another of my friends friends and their son.. Which hurt for reasons. But then my niece came over, said 'Happy Mothers Day' and gave me a big hug; and my heart melted. Then after they left I hit the store to get my mom a balloon, new card, and some candy. Plus got my grandmother a card. And when I was at the register, the lady said "I know you're not a mother, but since you always have peoples kids, Happy mothers day" with a smile on her face. And since she had no idea, I was hurt but not mad.. and I nicely replied back "Well.. Technically I am a mother, as I have an almost 10 year old. But her father abused her when she was 3 months old and dcf took her". She then said sorry and asked where he was, So I told her "in the next town, with my half sister and their 2-3 kids". And man you should've seen both her face, and the face of the lady in line behind me! They were both so angry and disgusted! And the lady behind me mentioned that they would have shot him. Then I left.. with my mind all jumbled up again. Even forgot my balloon and had to walk back for it. Then came home and came on here, but only for about 20 minutes as I didn't feel like talking much.. So I got off and laid down listening to one of the cds I made the other night. Mom came home as the cd ended, saw her stuff in her room and was "happy".. I say it like that because as I stated above it was a hard day for her too. Then we went to the store for dinner, cooked and ate, then watched tv til we had to go pick up my brother from work.. So yeah, yesterday definitely had it's emotions.. but was also a pretty normal day for us, especially towards the end.
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I totally understand. I am divorced and the ex has my kids so I don't see them that often anymore. And it hurts my parents because they love their grandkids very much. And to make yesterday harder, my girlfriend had lost her mother almost a year ago. So for her and her twin sister and her brothers, it was the first year without her. Her mother was a wonderful woman. I miss her as well. But life is funny and totally unpredictable.
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I am sorry it was a difficult day for you, it was for me too. I went to see my mom at the nursing home and she was deep asleep. I was torn between being grateful she wasn't awake because she might not have known me and disappointment.