I am worth it sure I am..

@sharon6345 (126401)
United States
May 24, 2018 6:35pm CST
I have to say please excuse me. I have been smoking all day it's not working. I am not sure why but I know stress makes it insane to deal with. I have to say I am so sick of it. I am trying to figure out if I can manage this. I am looking up and saying to myself that no matter how bad. I can manage. I have been asking all day if I will be here for my 50th Birthday. I have had a dream and trust me I want to see it. but goodness why on earth me.....how can anyone live with this. You know what scared me. When i learned from the dr. that fibromyalgia is intense when you have bipolar disorder and I knew that it should be lights out for me. I tell you one thing. I am going to smoke even if I have to get arrested. Because my child is my stress-er and no matter what I am hoping the day comes that we can be one big happy family again.It seems so far away but nothing will stop me. I can't bring myself to let her go. I am going to keep asking the powers that be to help. I am so upset that am going to eat the fridge out tonight. I hate this.
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@HannahD (124)
25 May
Live beautifully, dream passionately, love completely. This is one of my favorite words!
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@sharon6345 (126401)
• United States
25 May
That would be nice on my walls. I love that.
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@HannahD (124)
25 May
@sharon6345 Haha, thank you
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@celticeagle (118286)
• Boise, Idaho
25 May
I hope it comes for you.
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@sharon6345 (126401)
• United States
25 May
I am eased a little since hearing of those apples.
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@celticeagle (118286)
• Boise, Idaho
28 May
@sharon6345 .......Oh, good. Get them yet?
@sharon6345 (126401)
• United States
28 May
@celticeagle Yes the same night I got them. They were good and I have one left.
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@NJChicaa (40389)
• United States
24 May
You ladies need space right now. Kay is making bad, self-destructive decisions and it isn't good for your health to be involved. You will come back together in time but not right now.
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@sharon6345 (126401)
• United States
25 May
I have been keeping her away but she is asking to come help me. I can't get the words out I just say no not today. No visits and she gets upset. It's not easy seeing her place of living. She wants the house number and I said no.
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@NJChicaa (40389)
• United States
25 May
@sharon6345 you need your distance
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@NJChicaa (40389)
• United States
26 May
@sharon6345 I am glad to hear that things are moving in a good direction
• Philippines
25 May
You are still blessed compare to other people whom I think got it worst.
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@sharon6345 (126401)
• United States
25 May
I wish I felt that way,I am happy to say I am happy to feel the best I am feeling right now. Thank you. The pain has subsided for a while.
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@db20747 (8231)
• Washington, District Of Columbia
25 May
@sharon6345 glad the pain has subsided!!!
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@sharon6345 (126401)
• United States
26 May
@db20747 I feel sorry for myself eating like a cow. I gained 2 pounds. I don't want to gain anything.
@db20747 (8231)
• Washington, District Of Columbia
25 May
I was kinda similar at 22!!! Boy is that a dramatic age!! You're on your own and everything comes at U at lightning speed!!! Being young means having to learn!!! She will mature really soon and be full of wisdom!! The wisdom u gain from living!!!
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@sharon6345 (126401)
• United States
25 May
I was telling someone how she is learning to be frugal. Eat at home. and stuff like that. Her pizza addiction was crazy. if you could see her make a meal. in the condition, she lives it awesome.
@id_peace (6988)
• Singapore
24 May
You can smoke all you want. Nobody should control what you want to do
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@sharon6345 (126401)
• United States
25 May
Oh how nice that is for me to hear.
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@dgobucks226 (12217)
26 May
Every human walks around with a certain kind of sadness. They may not wear it on their sleeves, but it's there if you look deep- Taraji P. Henson You are not alone, we all go periods of sadness, stress and hopelessness. Have faith, wishing you better days ahead!
@sharon6345 (126401)
• United States
26 May
That is one of my favorite stars. thank you.
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@dgobucks226 (12217)
26 May
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@kanchan10 (2877)
• Kolkata, India
25 May
please do away with smoking. what is worse it harms your children too
@sharon6345 (126401)
• United States
25 May
I am smoking for pain not pleasure. The herbal stuff.
@jstory07 (67239)
• Roseburg, Oregon
25 May
You need to just sit down and relax and think of all the good you have in your life.