I need to calm down

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I am the kind of person that if I need to wait for something I am normally okay. Say if an old lady is walking in front of me and she is a little slow, I can wait for her and not be bothered with how slow she walks. If I am in line at the store and I only have 3 items but a mother with 3 screaming children has like 20 items I'll let her go ahead so she can get home quicker. But when it comes to either wanting to do something or important information I could not be more impatient. I remember when I wanted to get into needle punching I was getting so anxious that I didn't want to wait to get the needle punching tool! I was going crazy! Or when I was getting my drawing tablet I was waiting by the window like a puppy to watch if the mail carrier was putting a package in the mailbox. My lastest thing that I am going nuts about is the information for my student loans. And I have no idea if it is going to be good news or bad news. I filled everything out a week ago and it has been a week of just insanity, my brain literally feels like it is on fire and that only happens when I am spinning into manic depression. I don't like waiting for important information, just give me the details and let me figure it out! Ahhh!