This Thought Haunts Me

@yoalldudes Well if the assailant left then I guess you are safe where you are right now. I guess its a matter of time with the help of your new boss you can recover from it.

@rsa101 Yes I hope so too. The main assailant is gone but her minions are not lol

Thank you. My abuser has left the workplace but she has left me crippled to assert myself having ruined my reputation in the workplace. My current boss is very supportive. And now, the abuser take many forms as I have take on the character of the victim. I am working within myself but I am thinking I may heal fast with a new environment.

Funny yesterday our office implemented a rule where everyone in the office sitting down for quite a time to stand and walk around the office and stretch a bit every hour or a couple of hours. We jokingly followed and we got a bell and there's someone who rings it and when it is heard everyone is asked to stand up and so stretching exercises and walk around office. I just do not know if they can be retained in the office. LOL

@yoalldudes I will share to you a very personal information and for sure walking helped me.

I haven't been able able to although I want to because I wake up late and it is so hot. I hope it gets better by November.

Thank you for your moral support. I hope I make the right decision.

My "fight and flight hormones" is always on.

@yoalldudes It is tough to stay immune to external triggers. It takes time to become so strong and we have to consciously try for it.

I am starting to see the beauty of life so I feel I am starting to heal. External triggers are still there though so I relapse.

@arunima25 Baby steps I guess. Thank you for your wise advice

So true my friend. So my first step is healing of my inner self. It's so hard to train the mind and emotions. Are there any tips to keep the thoughts and feelings positive?

@yoalldudes Actually, I can relate with your situation and your fear is my fear too but I've learned to become numb with those insulting words from superior as time goes by.

@simplfred Thank you for sharing. I feel that now I have an ally.

@yoalldudes Yes, when we experience a traumatic and abusive situation, the negative after-effects can stay with us for a long time. I hope that God gives you peace of mind. Get close to Him as He can help us to deal with and to endure anything that comes our way.

Under my precvious boss and department it was, but now it's better but I have developed anxiety through the years. I have bouts of panic attacks through the day either at home or workplace.

Thank you so much. I can feel that it is working out somehow. Some people are kind. And I learn as I mature.

@yoalldudes You're welcome. I do hope you find a better job. Nobody should be subjected to verbal or emotional abuse.

Thank you for your moral support.

Those are wise man's words. That is so true. I have to start from myself.

@yoalldudes I hope so.

Yes you are right. In the meantime, I'm watering my grass. If it doesn't work, I hope to find something better.

@yoalldudes best of luck to you.

Thank you. I hope so.

My only consolation is it is better now than before.

Thank you for the hug, just what I needed.