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As you know, I'm in a rehab and nursing home facility. I have only FB messenger to talk to people. Messenger is how my daughter and I talk. Sometimes we call each other on it with the phone connection. It's kind of like having a cell phone, but not quite. Well, right now I wish I didn't have it. My daughter is using messenger to beat me up. She is using me as her punching bag over and over. She should be talking to a therapist rather than wearing me down to where I am emotionally and physically sick. Everything she said is true and I have apologized and asked for forgiveness but she just keeps using me as her personal punching bag. She was molested by 3 husbands. The marriages never lasted but I never knew anything was happening to her. She never told me and she never complained from what was happening. I never found out until she was admitted to a pediatric mental hospital. I found out what happened to her during a family counselling meeting. Now 40 plus years have passed. She is reliving what happened to her and she said it's all my fault. She said the first man to pay attention to me I ended up marrying. So I am at fault. This has been going on for about 2 weeks. She has put me on the defensive because she has been making up a story she apparently believes is true. I wonder if her husband is agging it on. She said she never trusted me with her husband. She said that I said he was coming on to me. She said I wanted him. I told her to think about the absurdity of what she is saying. He hates me, and any time he's nice to me it's fake. She keeps saying she needs space and doesn't want to speak to me, yet she goes on and on and on, beating a dead horse. I can't go back and rewrite the past. I'm powerless to help her. I've tried to validate her feelings and accept all the blame and she still beats me up. I'm sick. My COPD exacerbations is so bad that I cough to the point of suffocation because I can't get a breath in. The stress of her treatment of me is wearing me down. It's like she wants to kill me with guilt. Has anyone been through this. Please don't respond if you haven't read what I said.