At my lowest point.
By Bhem
@JustBhem (70555)
Davao, Philippines
November 8, 2018 8:31pm CST
I don't know how to deal with all the changes in me. With my shrinking body and bloated face. I don't think I can manage to make myself feel comfortable. I even hated the way I walk now. My fingers are in different shape now too. My feet are aching with few steps. All of them are hard. And I don't think it's challenging for me, they are all miserable for me.
I don't think I am ready to face these changes.
I don't even think I am ready to see other people.
Now, I regret one of my choices instead I should listen to my own voice other than listening to others.
Anything new here?
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@marguicha (215325)
• Chile
9 Nov 18
@JustBhem. I am so sorry. But it must be hard for him too.
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@allknowing (130066)
• India
9 Nov 18
That must be due to fluid retention. Your dialysis should take care of that May be you can talk about it with the technician/doctor.
It is a matter of getting used to what you are going through and time will help you do that.
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@allknowing (130066)
• India
10 Nov 18
@JustBhem I understand your problem is not common but everyone at some point in their life have to get used to whatever they are growing through. I do that too. It is better that way.
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@acelawrites (19273)
• Philippines
9 Nov 18
So sorry about your condition; but though I know how hard it is, just pray that you'll get comfortable soon.
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@simplfred (20608)
• Philippines
9 Nov 18
Hopefully, everything will turn out well, my friend. I know stages like that is part of the ferris wheel of life.
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@JustBhem (70555)
• Davao, Philippines
9 Nov 18
@simplfred
Strong? I'm so weak at this point.
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@dave121495 (1296)
• Philippines
17 Nov 18
Do you mean your afraid of people because they might see you differently?
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@JustBhem (70555)
• Davao, Philippines
17 Nov 18
@dave121495
Indeed. Like I'm okay with Dialysis forever but changing my physical appearance, I don't like it.
@dave121495 (1296)
• Philippines
17 Nov 18
@JustBhem I know the feeling, i have this huge scar on my forehead, sometimes I think i'm just ugly. Anyway as Ms. Diannen said personality tops looks.
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