Trying to keep my spirits up...

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As it is well known my house was burned down by our power company last year. It's been a long 13 months (actually it's almost 14 months now) since the fire. Everything I had is gone and I remember more every day. I remembered father's WWII photo album that was incinerated in the blaze along with other mementos of his service in the navy. It takes a LOT of strength to keep from crying each time I remember what was lost. One thing I am trying to keep my spirits up is "home shopping". I am looking at modular homes which are homes built on trailers and moved to the site and then taken off the trailers and placed on concrete foundations. I toured some a few months ago and really didn't like them, but I can't face trying to build a new home from scratch. A trailer or mobile home is totally out of the question because of the home owner's association rules. So, it's either a modular or one of those blasted kit homes. Right now it's hard keeping my spirits up living with my boyfriend. I live in a space about 12 by 14 feet. Most of my stuff is in bins stacked outside under tarps. That stuff is bear making supplies and a few things that neighbors gave me. I'm still dreaming of a Siamese kitten. Just one...it would make things so much better and help my spirits. I did write an email to the neighbor who also lost his home. He didn't mess with filing a claim with the power company, he went straight to an attorney. I asked him what attorney he is using so that I have that in my back pocket to go to when the power company denies my claim. Right now I am at the point of going from having a home, clothes, a hobby/business, mementos, 9 cats and a mini dachshund, and a Subaru station wagon (with four brand new tires with less than 50 miles on them) to nothing but my purse, the clothes on my back and one cat (Petey). Everything else is ash. Anyone would have a tough time keeping their spirits up! I guess I need to get off my butt and get ready to go to town and see the doctor. I need to stop at the shop and decorate and organize the shelves for Christmas...hopefully I'll do some good sales for Christmas. It would be nice to be able to afford to put a down payment on a used car for myself.....maybe. I'll hit Bill up to let me go to Goodwill, that might also help me be a little happier, especially if I can find a bread maker for making my rolls and fresh bread. I would love to have Bill wake up to the aroma of bread baking first thing in the morning. I won't get my hopes up...there isn't too much point, it's like getting a half million dollar check from the power company to pay for my house and contents and car and my furry babies....it ain't gonna happen until hell freezes over. Especially with the power company getting a reprieve from the government on all the losses incurred from the fires.