I am soooo mad right now!!!
January 6, 2007 9:21pm CST
I am shaking in anger...as my fingers type, the feeling gets more and more intense. I take long drags at my cigarette and my heart gasps, not knowing why it is being subjected to such kind of torture. My skin becomes red, the color of blood rushing to my head. I am on a rage! I want to explode! I can't calm myself. I have a point and I want to get it across. I don't care if my neighbors hear it! I just don't care anymore. I want to get out of this crap they call a house and I want to torch it down right after I step out! I don't care if I get arrested. As long as I can say whatever it is I've been trying so hard not to say...as long as I can scream at that man's face and tell him how little I think of him...as long as I can exhaust all this reserved anger...till I can be calm again, I won't have a single iota of regret or shame in my head. I am mad and I have all the right in the world to be mad. Thank you for the relief.
7 Jan 07
Have you ever felt a sense of comfort in your anger like you don't want to let go of it...you want to stay angry at that precise moment and you don't want to let that fiery moment to escape because if you do...if you calm yourself down...then you ultimately would have betrayed yourself and regret all those things that were left unsaid? When somebody provokes you, you don't just back down. Your anger will be your defense mechanism or a source of power against attacks made by other people.