middle child

I was the oldest of three. My brother was 1 1/2 years younger. Then came my sister 6 years later. She was probably more disconnected from her two older brothers.

The psychologists has unearthed this fact long ago. The middle child is always having the most baffled position in the family. The persistent feeling of being caught in the middle is there. The parents mostly give their attention to the older and the younger children. The older children relate to each other well, and so, with the younger ones. So, you feel to be always the one left behind. The neglected and unloved one. I used to feel that way, too. In fact, I've nurtured through the years some kind of bitterness against my parents. Although I observed that my parents did their best to see everyone to school, I always have to be the one to give in - the one to be considerate. I will have to use the clothes which the older siblings can no longer use or I'll have nothing much to wear, I always take second place to them at all times. I am supposed to be understanding to the younger siblings, I am the older one. Boy, I felt that at home I am alone and a nobody, why was I ever been born? Now that I am of age, I understand that it's really difficult to run a big family. Some will always be left behind in terms of parental attention. Good for those who have only two kids in the family.