A story of a young adult... (need comments please)

Philippines
February 6, 2007 2:29am CST
I have a girlfriend before, I do love her. She had, had this short affair with a friend, that was a long time ago before when we're still at our 1st year as lover's. It happened in summer when we had to go on to have our on-the-job training in separate places. We've promised each other never to have any flings or whatsoever. But it did happen to her, and i think she was immature that time. It was one normal rainy evening when the time i found out about the affair. She was cooking something that time, and quite sexy while wearing my shirt on. i just happened to sort down things in her cell phone. And there is this one folder i couldn't open and i'm curious about. But then i asked for the password, neglect, she gave it to me without ever wondering what is inside. She forgot! For Christ sake, she forgot of what is inside. The messages inside the folder was the messages of their affair. I've read every single detail of it, while her not noticing that I've grown into confusion and fury. I've got so pissed that i couldn't understand myself, my face burned red and i couldn't focus my sight for that moment. An hour passed, I was feeling relieved with my anger but then I raised the questions to her of what, why, and how did these happened. She cried that night in her knees, begging of me not to leave her. She did everything just to please me. But my love and pity for her resides, it won over my pride. I forgave her... That was the first time my heart bled. I forgave her that night and then not realizing what it may cause me if i wont let the feeling of anger be out of me. She told me that nothing happened between them, but I didn't totally believed her. She said she's really sorry, but it did really hurt me from that much that i tried to keep it to myself but it still kept on resounding back and it won't stop. Time passed, we graduated and both became engineers. She went home and tend their family business. While i am left here in the city where i am pursuing my career and stuff. We call each other and text, months have pass but, loneliness grew in me. I can not fight it. I tend to work it out through going out with my friends but still it is not enough. I want her beside me; I always ask myself "WHy did i let this happen?"One night in a bar, while with my friends having fun. I met this girl. "By God, I think she is endowed with such beauty and grace." I observed her from afar and got hooked by her. We got acquainted and from then on everyday i get to visit her; we eat dinner together after work and after her school.We do what i and my girlfriend did before. She filled my longings for my girlfriend. I was happy until a month after she approached me of a news that she is pregnant. My girlfriend knew about the situation now. She knew that i am living with the girl. And she's begging for me to come back. What should I do? I am confused...
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5 responses
@smille (831)
• India
6 Feb 07
its all a big mess u hv created, first ask urself tht whom u want? the girl u r living with or the ur x GF. but i think gone is past....the girl with u is ur responsibility now since she is pregnent, ur Xgirlfriend had cheated on u and so left her, so now its better atleast do justice with the girl and dont creat some more complecations, u will start loving her too once time passes and will forget ur gf too.
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• Philippines
7 Feb 07
my priority really right now is the baby... love can wait, but my child can't.. i have to be responsible enough to support my child... i think this is the best idea or plan for anyone who may be in my shoes right now... thank you again... it really helped...
@classy56 (2883)
• United States
6 Feb 07
sounds like you got yourself in a mess.frist ask yourself who do you really want?an now you have a baby on the way!do you want to be a father to the baby an rasie it with the other girl.i would do what i felt in my heart an what would make me happy.dont live with someone you dont care about. an break their heart.just do whatever makes you happy.an deal with the other girl later.you cant have both.
• Philippines
7 Feb 07
yeah i think i should... in everything i do i really should weigh and do things that my heart wants... but this problem is really confusing... thank you again for the advice...
@howard96h (11659)
• New York, New York
6 Feb 07
Which one do you love, your ex or the girlfriend your living with?
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• Philippines
7 Feb 07
that's the thing, bcoz i am confused... but, little by little i get to learn to love this girl im living with... thanks!!
@mssnow (9493)
• United States
7 Feb 07
Looks like you started a new life with the girl who is pregnant . Whatever the outcome you will have to help take care of the baby. I would think long and hard about takin gyour first girlfriend back. Even if she never cheats again you might still have doubts and not be able to trust her. Good luck with whatever you choose.
• Philippines
7 Feb 07
really confusing, dont you think?!! ;-) but i do really have to stand for this responsibility to my child... love can wait... my child deserves love from a father, i won't let his life be ruined... i have seen many people who's life is like that, and i won't do that to my children in the future... thanks by the way... it really helped...
• United States
7 Feb 07
You alone can make your choice. In my opinion, you have a responsibility for the second girl because you got her pregnant. Why don't you meet up with your first girl and see if you really still have feelings for her? Maybe you just feel that there is unfinished business there. After that, ask yourself deeply, "Do I love the girl I impregnated? Do I see myself living my life with her, for better or for worse? Or is it only love on the rebound?" After deep thinking and serious deliberation, you have to make your choice then. Hope I helped in any way.