The truth about dying

@pagibig (299)
Philippines
March 7, 2007 11:51am CST
You think you know somebody so well. You think you could trust them. You love them and give them everything. Your heart, your trust, your life. Then one day, one unexpected day, everything crashes. You learn everything is a lie. You learn that your trust was betrayed and your heart is breaking and you are dying. It might not be physical death. but still you are dying. dying because the person you loved most is not the person is not the person he said he is. you learned that all his promises, all his plans, all that he said are nothing but lies. you learned that your love is nothing but one big lie. and then you die. i die. everytime my heart gets broken i die. slowly and i rise back up again. a new person. stronger. wisers. the old me is dead. but when you love somebody as much as you can possibly love anybody, can you rise up again? maybe you could. but this time, i don't want to. i died when i learned everything was a lie. i died. and i don't want to start again. i just want to remain dead. the truth about dying is, you die every time. and you live again. but one day, you'll just stay dead. you'll stay dead your whole life. until your body dies. and i'm already dead. i am nothing but a vessel now. my heart is dead. betrayed, crushed, and thrown away. my heart is dead. i promised you will be my last love. and i have given you all that i could give. but you betrayed me, you broke my heart. and now i'm dead. i'm not worth the truth. thank you for breaking my heart.
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13 responses
• India
8 Mar 07
i know it gives a lot of mental pain when you losse someone you loved. but it is also true that every one has to go if not now then some other day.
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• Philippines
8 Mar 07
I can relate with your blog... Love itself is a poison that make us die.. We have to learn to live, love then let go.. It is better to love, be loved then to lose than to never experience love at all.. Go on with your life
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• India
8 Mar 07
this thing is not happened with you only ,a lot of your friends also get through this circumstences,including me. but i don't hate her,but i feel scared to belive any body, i lost my confidence in trust ,love, that's why i say "BE ALONE TO BE HAPPY ON",,,,,
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• Canada
8 Mar 07
I'm sorry that you feel so empty. Betrayal is a terrible thing and it kills you off a little at a time. However, life goes on. We must learn to roll with the punches and get on with things, otherwise our entire lives would be a waste. Don't let someone control you to the extent that you die. Don't let the pain engulf you to the extent that you let life pass you by. There's so much more out there and no person is worth this kind of reaction.
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@Glaeken (109)
• United States
7 Mar 07
I know how it does, can't say I've ever had anyone in my life that I've cared for that doesn't end up disappearing on me or ends up striking out at me from their own issues, but I certainly won't let it stop me. You'll get better. We all do. Time might not heal the wounds but it will bring along new people and opportunities, as long as you don't seal yourself away.
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@perapera (19)
• Philippines
14 Apr 07
You still thank him for doing that because you know that somehow, someday, you'll get over this guy. I know exactly how you feel..and that's all over for me now. You're body may not move accordingly even if your mind tells you to go on live..but think of this.. that's is not the only reason for living..don't think of things to forget him..just look around you..see your place? what else can you do to improve, enhance, or to learn new things. what is your dream? how will you do it if you'll not stand up and walk around. Life is too short.. you remember when you are in elementary? still fresh in your mind? remember all the memories until you get to where you are now? look at you before and look at you now..in a matter of hours..you won't notice you'll get old..and your purpose in life..what will happen? Come on.. you know what to do..do not just be strong. But gather all your strength and move on..fight!
• India
8 Mar 07
'LOVE IS A SWEET-POISON'.Today every people will have their own love affairs.We see even the animals love one another.There are many failures and some success. Failures are not permanent and success is not forever-This is the truth that no one understands.But for you it is too difficult to understand,because what you have described here proves that. I am sure that no one can pay for the loss of yours,but you yourself can do it.I had the same experience a few years back,with a girl who has now become a call-girl. I tried to forget her,but that never took place.I even thought of punishing her,but then i thought that will be of no use to me. We are of the same kind.I thought of living for various other causes.I dont want to waste this life of mine so i decided to work for mankind and for the sake of my beloved animals. Why dont you try to do something like this. First it will be difficult to concentrate but after taking a close look at the poor people in my country i changed my attitudes.. I hope this will help you..
• India
8 Mar 07
Hi! Nice post. Very touchy, keep posting this kind of experience. Good day.
• India
8 Mar 07
wow! you are one hell of a pessimistic person! come on gal! dont be so depressed about uch stuff!! what you should keep in your mind is that it doesnt matter who hurts you or who breaks your heart...all that matters is you! just dont care abut anyone that much! dont give anyone as much importance as you give yourself! that way no one can hurt you in anyways!
@beaniegdi (1966)
8 Mar 07
believe it or not your heart will heal. the love you gave this guy is the love you are capable of giving again. you will recover and you will meet someone else and one day it will be the right one for you. i promise.
• Philippines
8 Mar 07
be better!! there is no other way but up. its ok to cry. its ok to feel the sadness. its ok to burst it all in sleep. but only for a while. never let a lost love ruin your life. dont let a person make you feel miserable for the longest time. life is so beautiful. there are still better things to do than fall crazily in love with someone who is not worth it in the first place. stand up and be well!! im sure better things are waiting for you. take care and God bless.
• India
8 Mar 07
Hi Pagibig, the discussion u started is really good.Yes, it happens to everyone at some time of his/her life. It happened to me also and I'm thankful for that. I thank her everyday what she has done to me. Because she who dumped me gave me a reason to live. Every time I remember her my adrenaline gets pumped and I live longer. So, now I enjoy my life with new friends and new people who come into my life. And I grow stronger and stronger day by day (but I don't die). There's no reason for us to die while we are alive,he'she must be abashed for dumping people like us. My bottom line 'Live and let live'.
• United States
8 Mar 07
Th truth about dying is that it covers you lie a thick, black cloak and suffocates you.