End of the road

@hopeful28 (1439)
Singapore
March 31, 2007 6:46am CST
That's how I am feeling right now. In fact, I have been feeling down for the past few weeks. One negative issue after another has piled up on me. It's too personal to share and I don't think anyone can understand what I'm feeling. However, I guess it doesn't hurt to share what I'm feeling in the following poem by Helen Steiner Rice. Everyone needs Someone: People need people and friends need friends, And we all need love for a full life depends Not on vast riches or great acclaim, Not on success or on worldly fame, But just in knowing that someone cares And holds us close in their thoughts and prayers - For only the knowledge that we're understood Makes everyday living feel wonderfully good. And we rob ourselves of life's greatest need When we lock up our hearts and fail to heed The outstretched hand reaching to find A kindred spirit whose heart and mind Are lonely and longing to somehow share Our joys and sorrows and to make us aware That life's completeness and richness depends On the things we share with our loved ones and friends. Friends, this is for you.
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@cassidy22 (2975)
• United States
31 Mar 07
Sweetie, you'd be surprised.. When you think NO ne could understand and NO one could ever know what you are going through... This isn't meant to sound harsh... but you are so wrong. There are so many people dealing with loss, frustrating ,loneliness, despair and especially DEPRESSION. You dont have to bear the burden alone.. talk to people you trust and love.. go see a therapist, whatever it takes. You don't hae to suffer, really,you don't.
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@hopeful28 (1439)
• Singapore
31 Mar 07
I guess it's a sweeping statement to say nobody understands. It's just difficult to find someone I know who will listen without being judgemental. I will see a professional if I don't get out of the pits soon. I really don't want to go over the edge.
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@vicky19810 (1601)
• China
1 Apr 07
oh my friend,i do not know what is the problem and trouble to you.but i do not hope that you are in depressed at all time.please get out of it ,and be happy to do something with your family ,your friends,and the like.i believe that you can hold on yourself and control your mood well.try to do it better,and you will be in another status.come on ,go ahead,you should believe that you can do ,then it is true.bless you...
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@hopeful28 (1439)
• Singapore
1 Apr 07
Don't worry, I am trying. I have to remind myself not to make any major decisions though at this time cos my mind can't focus so well.
@muscare (3069)
• Australia
31 Mar 07
My wife suffers from a major depressive disorder, and I care for her full time. I've been on such a long journey of emotions with her,even to the end of the road and back. I always give her lots of tlc and hugs and always find another reason to keep going. She also has professional help, which helps immensely. I think you need to be close to the people you love, for lots of hugs, even if you don't want to talk about it. And please, if it doesn't help, seek help from the people who are trained to do so. They can and will help.
@hopeful28 (1439)
• Singapore
31 Mar 07
Hi muscare. Thank you for your suggestions. If I have a supportive and hugging family I probably won't feel so bad. They don't believe in hugs. Never mind, I don't expect it from them. Any help I will ever get will be from outside the family. It's always been this way. This is a recurrence of my illness, so it's not new to me.
• India
1 Apr 07
Don't believe anything is hopeless. Keep trying may be one day you will overcome the situation. I understand certain matters cannot be discussed openly.
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• United States
1 Apr 07
((((((HUGS))))) Hang in there. One thing you should feel good about is that you are talking about your depression and recognizing that you need to go for some professional help. Take the steps you need to take now before it sucks you in too far. You know you have friends here if you can't share with friends in your own family/town. Take care of yourself and I hope you start feeling brighter and lighter soon.
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@hopeful28 (1439)
• Singapore
1 Apr 07
Thank you shady. Hugs to you too. I am hanging in there - hanging for dear life in fact. I want to get through all these issues and become stronger too. Took me a few weeks to admit that I am down with depression again though. It is hard.
• United States
1 Apr 07
Admitting it and talking about it and going for help will make you a stronger person. :o) Try to find something everyday to look forward to, to make you smile and to help you see how much life has to offer. :o) You have all of us here behind you.
@rainbow (6763)
2 Apr 07
Hi Sweetie, what a moving poem to share with us! Thank-you I'm sorry you are upset again, take care my darling! Bug squiggy hugs R***
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@hopeful28 (1439)
• Singapore
2 Apr 07
Thank you rainbow, I will try my best to get out of this. I really can't afford to get sicker than this. And I will accept your hugs without the bugs, lol! Big hugs back to you!
@oarnamav (2708)
• India
1 Apr 07
The roads which end abruptly are called "Runways" on the airport. You are supposed to take a momentum and a speed before you meet this end point and should go for a successful "Take-off" for flying high in the sky. The pain of leaving behind the ground is definitly there but a pleasure of flying high in the sky still is there and can reach the heights where sky too can not be the limit. Try to take the ends as starts of tomorrow my friend. All the best from oarnamav.
@hopeful28 (1439)
• Singapore
1 Apr 07
Thanks oarnamav. If I can really take off I don't think I want to land ever again. I want to fly to somewhere where no one can find me. Will come back when I am recharged and refueled.
@Zelmarq (11503)
• Cebu City, Philippines
1 Apr 07
Hello hopeful! Im been through this before and I kno its never easy. here was emptiness in my life and emptiness that I never knew what. I kept on searching anywhere, friends, relationships, family, affairs and a lot more but still i was empty. I thought I never found the answer until the day I was introduced to my saviour Jesus Christ. There I understood why no matter how I tried all things just went off and really didnt matter. That no matte where I searched I never found it for it was all along in Christ Jesus. The only one who made it al worthwhile and made it all worth living. The only one who have filled the kind of emptiness. I hope one day you will come to find for yourself the emptiness that you have felt in your life right now! Have a blessed day to you!
@hopeful28 (1439)
• Singapore
1 Apr 07
It's not so much of emptiness I am feeling and I am aware of God's presence with me although my prayers doesn't seem to be reaching heaven. Not that I can count on my feelings I know at this time.
• India
1 Apr 07
im feel konely at the end of the road
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@hopeful28 (1439)
• Singapore
1 Apr 07
What can I say? Go through all the responses here. It will help you as it has for me. Take care and hang in there with me.
@sensesfail (2251)
• India
1 Apr 07
I suggest that you talk it over to your people or your friends.It'd definitely do good.Trust me on this. Also you could seek help from the eternal Helper--your God.There can be no helper like him. I'd definitely pray for you that you get over this.All the very best!
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@hopeful28 (1439)
• Singapore
1 Apr 07
At the moment, I really can't think of anyone I want to or can talk to except my counsellor who is in her 80s. Unless I really am at the end of my tether I don't want to bother her. She's helped me so much in the past already and I really love her. Will appreciate your prayers.
@budsr03 (2354)
• Canada
1 Apr 07
Hello my friend, i have felt lost and alone sometimes and i can't fix it. As long as i stay on medication for depression i feel that i can cope. I hope you seek help or find even "just a little hope"! Do what it takes to find what you lost or whatever is stopping you from enjoying life please! At thee end of the road one can always turn around and go back to start all over. Take care Hopeful28.
@hopeful28 (1439)
• Singapore
1 Apr 07
Hi bud, good to see you again. You have depression too? I am so sorry to hear that. I have bad experiences with medication so if I can help it I don't want to go on it again. True, I must be willing to start over but it's not going to be easy. Thanks for your encouragement. You take care too.
@bad1981 (799)
• United States
1 Apr 07
I am sorry that you are feeling this way...I hope you feel better soon and the world starts looking better for you. I hope that it isnt anything serious that you are dealing with.
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@hopeful28 (1439)
• Singapore
1 Apr 07
At times like these, even my plant dying on me seems to testify of my helplessness. Can't even keep a plant alive so how to handle the more serious problems? Still have to get through somehow.
• United States
1 Apr 07
It is hard to deal with things in our lives that bother us. Like little pebbles tossed into a pile, they one day tower over us and threaten to topple over. I hope that you find peace my friend. Huggers to you.
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@hopeful28 (1439)
• Singapore
1 Apr 07
You are right and I am trying to dig my way out of the rubble. Hugs to you too.
@vanities (11387)
• Davao, Philippines
31 Mar 07
i have been there also ..and its not only one but few times in my life that i feel down and miserable...but i gain strength from my family ..that is my husband and children to be able to surpass it all..and i did...i just try to think positively so that the burden im carrying will be lightend and be gone completely...and of course i always turn to God first for strength and perseverance...i like your poem anyway..
@hopeful28 (1439)
• Singapore
1 Apr 07
I wish my family were more supportive. If they were I would not be feeling so alone. But although I don't feel God is so close right now I do know that at times like these, my mind plays tricks on me and I have to trust in Him, there's no one else.
@kathy77 (7488)
• Australia
31 Mar 07
Oh I am very sorry to hear that you have been feeling down lately it is dreadful when we have these times and we wonder when we will see positive light back in our lives. This is a beautiful poem from Helen Steiner Rice, and I know that she does write wonderful poems. Thank you my friend xx
@hopeful28 (1439)
• Singapore
1 Apr 07
Thank you kathy. It is so good to see you here. I have been missing all your health tips and recipes because I have not been on so often. Hugs to you.
• United States
31 Mar 07
i know how you feel. i have a friend that i work with and she has some problems that i can not say. the only thing that i can say is this be strong and be honest and everything will be fine
@hopeful28 (1439)
• Singapore
1 Apr 07
Thank you for your encouragement. Being strong at this time will take effort and I will try my best to overcome.
31 Mar 07
Sorry to hear that things have been going badly for you. I have only recently joined MyLot and what a great place it is that so many people have responded to you with such positive thoughts already. I feel you will pull through as your username expresses a hopeful nature. I love your picture icon too. Thank you for sharing the poem. Best wishes for things turning around for the better soon.
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@hopeful28 (1439)
• Singapore
1 Apr 07
Yes, I am thankful for all my friends here. I didn't even realise that they knew I have not been here so often for awhile. I am very touched - in fact, I almost cried as I saw all the familiar names. May the Lord pour out His blessings on all of them and not forgetting you too.
• United States
31 Mar 07
I'm so sorry that you are going through such a hard time right now. Many people go through depressing times. Some harder than others. It is extremely hard when it seems like everytime you turn around, something is going wrong. After awhile you get so depressed though that you fail to see the positives that are going on around you. If you don't mind, I would like to point out some positives. After reading responses it seems that you have a lot of people right here that care about you and I hope that in itself brings you some comfort. Second, that poem was beautiful and it sounds like you have already helped others just by them reading that. I know it is a poem that I will always remember. It's extremely insightful. So knowing that you in turn helped others is a positive too. I can tell you through personal experience that things do get better. If depression is a problem, perhaps you should seek a counselor to discuss this with. Someone that can help you pin-point the root of the problem. Talking with friends helps. Telling others how you feel like you did in here is another way. Knowing that you are depressed is a first step. Knowing why is the second. Just know that there is always someone who cares about you and your well being. I hope this has helped you in some way. *HUGS* to you and I hope you find the light at the end of the tunnel. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Good luck to you.
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@hopeful28 (1439)
• Singapore
1 Apr 07
Thank you. I need all your prayers. When everything seems so dark, it's hard to see the light. If someone is helped through this discussion besides myself, it is worth it I guess. I will try to remind myself to think positively.
• United States
31 Mar 07
Hi hopeful.. I DO know exactly how yu are feeling. I will never forget how awful the emptiness inside felt. I loved your poem!! Do not overlook the needs for meds as they really can help. Remember, too, this is not your fault. You like mny of us, have a chemical imbalance and thats what the meds help correct. I KNOW without a SHAADOW OF A DOUBT that if I stopped taking my meds I would be either in Pasch Ward or in a rubber room the rest of my life! I am stretching out my hand to you, would like to invite you to be a friend. I can promise you that I will ALWAYS be here;nomatter if you want to communicate through discussion or by messages.. Let me kow !! Sending big hugs to you! meredith
@hopeful28 (1439)
• Singapore
1 Apr 07
It's good to know there are people who understand. The last thing I want is to be back in the psychiatric ward and taking meds. Most antidepressants causes weight gain and I don't need that. Have sent you a message. Thank you.
@ehdzzie (331)
• Philippines
31 Mar 07
posting like that here in myLot will help you...people you don't know like me will give comments which will make you smile after all.....
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@hopeful28 (1439)
• Singapore
1 Apr 07
Thank you. I really do appreciate all the care and concern that my friends show me here even though they have not seen me or know me that well.