life is like a machine here!!

When I was atting in matriculation,my dream was to be an engineer.After pass matriculation, I have to join Zoology majoring subject in the first year of college without intention upon my total marks. In second year I had change the major of history upto final year because of family's business failure.With my bachelor degree of history major,I entered the work of religioin department,livestock compay,electrical company,overseas employment agency without purpose to work. I check myself now and no idea to promote my business and life. I really don't know what is my profession,skill,interest and how to upgrade my skill.
In addition to these,all the work experienced could not cover me charge for living,dressing and something to spend.

Now life is like a monkey,i feel lost the way where to join,how to do. I feel tired of rocky life.

At present as a machine,running to work,come back home late, earn less salary( Equivalent 50US$ per month).