My Drinking

Is there no one that can watch your cildren while you attend meeting? A family member, neighbohood teenager that you trust? Have you thought about looking for an online forum where you can chat with people with similiar problems? How about taking up a hooby?

I used to drink also,, I went into a Rehab after a Brutal rape for 35 days, I enjoyed it, got sober, and met alot of pretty good people,, AA meetings were great,, I stayed sober for 3 years and 8 months, then we moved due to a job loss of my husbands, it was a big culture shock and my husband was gone all the time with his new job, I had NO family or freinds around me and people were very different here, small layed back old German town, I came from NY,, well, I was ok for 4 months and relapsed,, it was like yours, I hated it,, I hated myself, I drank off and on for 3 months and joined AA here, well, I hated that too, it wasn't like home, no one would hardly talk to me, and in NY we were told to help other drunks, so I gave a guy a ride to a meeting one night, in NY I used to load my car up with people all the time that needed rides, no one said anything, well, a rumor then got started that this guy I gave a ride to,,I was having an affair with him, they made my freakin life miserable, so I found a Church I liked and started to go every week, I joined Bible studies, and met nice women who understood, I still kept relapsing, but I NEVER stopped praying, and Praying to God to help me stop,, one day I did, I now have been sober for 2 years and 3 months, no AA,, I also did a 12 step program one to one with a minister that specialized in addictions, I met with him 1 day a week,, for 12 weeks,, it really helped, I also had alot of people praying for me,, I am an Alcoholic, and I have one day at a time, but for today I am sober, and God will take care of tomorrow. Where do you live? I will PRAY for you,, if you have 2 children they need you so badly sober, not drunk,, you will feel like a new person, and you can face things through God without picking up a drink, I know exactly what you are going through,, it is pure hell, and you CAN do it,, believe me,, Please,, I will help all I can and I will definately PRAY for you and your children, they need their Mom,, AA doesn't always work for everyone, you must really really want to do this, and you will, those little innocent children need you, I saw what it did to my kids and I can't take it back,, not ever, and that hurts, but they see me sober now, and they know how destructive alcohol is! God Bless You! If your name is Cindy,, mine is too,, only I spell it Cyndi,, I am Praying for you!

I know you are embarassed but I also know you really want to get through this, and you need to both for yourself and your kids. Cindy, you need accountablility. I am not saying broadcast your drinking to everyone, but tell 1-2 family members that will watch your children for you so you can go to AA meetings. This way you have someone coming over so you will go because they are holiding you accountable as well as the AA group.

Basically u r mind is bounded on your own boundaries. U must be come out from the boundaries of your mind. Its easy, if u feel to drink then change your mind n do some thing else. Change your thoughts n try to maintain dicipline life. Automatically u can get changes in your life.

hi
to come out of ur drinking habit u need alot of dedication.
u make up ur mind and heart that u will not do it again.
and think about ur children,by seeing thr faces u dont want to give them a good well brought up life.
and u mentioned in ur post that u dont want to see ur family sad
well for the sake of ur family decide that ur not going touch wine.
analyse and think the consequenses then definately u will quit this drinking habit

Its easy for anyone to say stop doing this or that...
If you want help.. you need to speak to someone that will understand you, someone that has been through similar or worse situations.
I have allot of expiriance in this field... both helping and once upon a time over particapating in quite a 'free' lifestyle.

If you do not eventually change your ways... you will loose the people around you... and NOT because they dont love you, But because you push them away with your selfish behaviour.

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